Tuesday, March 17, 2015

"DECEMBER BOYS" STATUS REPORT

It has been quite some time since I have posted any material regarding this fifth story from Tales From Memorial Union and while I do have another section ready to go, I wanted to take some time to give all of you an update...especially as I am certain that you have been waiting for it with bated breath (ha ha).

As I have expressed to you in the introduction to this story, "December Boys" has grown into something that I had never anticipated. Regardless of the simplicity of its actual story--two friends undergoing heartbreak spend a frigid February Friday night together as they go to see "Say Anything..." on campus but end up even more heartbroken as the night continues due to the close presence of their still raw romantic memories--writing it has revealed a larger purpose in order for the whole thing to make more emotional sense to me. I guess what I am trying to say is that within memories lie a myriad of other memories and within each moment, anything can cause an emotional trigger to send one spiraling through those memories...even the unwanted ones.

So far, I have "published" most of what has already been written and typed--close to 100 pages and certainly nothing that I had initially intended when I first had the idea for the story in mind. Some of it is highly autobiographical (most notably, quite a lot of the material that centers itself around my alter-ego Craig Hughes), some of it is not or not explicitly so (the material with Rhett Brazelton is much more invented), but all of it, I am trying to make as honest as possible and reminiscent of what my college experience was actually like.

There has already been a fair amount of time jumping within the short stories that house the larger "December Boys," so if there has been a tad of confusion, especially as it is being released piece meal, this is all you really need to know...

WINTER SEQUENCES-(set in the story's PRESENT--circa February 1990)
"PARALLEL LINES: THE BALLAD OF CRAIG AND STEPHANIE-PART ONE" (1987-1988)
"A PILGRIMAGE ON A TIMELESS NIGHT" (Spring--early April 1989)

Very soon, the story will shift for a lengthy spell for us to spend time exclusively with Rhett during the Summer/Autumn of 1989 as he takes a Summer Session Fundamentals In Ethics Philosophy course, the place where he meets and falls for Amethyst Lessing. This section, I have been steadily writing since January 2015 in my Moleskine notebook as well as a new notebook my Co-Teachers gave to me on my birthday this year. I try my best to write during our classroom's daily rest periods (a time in which I am struggling to keep my eyes open as well) and I am happy that I am just plugging away, going and going, just allowing myself to write whatever I wish, knowing that I can edit or change later.

Once I post the next section to this site, I have some typing to do so I will even have something to share with you at all. But, please know that I hope that you are enjoying this story and that you'll stay with me as it continues to arrive here and there. I honestly do not know how long this journey will take for "December Boys" to reach its completion. But I do know how it will end--the ending has been in my head for YEARS!

It just may take me some time to get there.

Stay tuned...

Saturday, February 21, 2015

"DECEMBER BOYS" PART EIGHT: A PILGRIMAGE ON A TIMELESS NIGHT (5th section)


DECEMBER BOYS
"A PILGRIMAGE ON A
TIMELESS NIGHT" 
(5th section)  
     The remainder of the morning continued in a mental fog pierced with the brightness of the sun. The trio staggered to Josie Fagen’s dorm of Witte Hall, where Mariah collected her possessions and deposited Josie’s room keys with a floor mate. After then dropping off Mariah’s clothes at Rhett’s dorm in Ogg Hall, the threesome traveled back to the Lakeshore dorms to crash in Craig’s room for the rest of the morning, as well as the entirety of the afternoon into early evening. Upon waking, it was then decided to give Mariah Esposito a proper introduction to the university—after a strategically placed phone call to Mariah’s parents, designed to cut them off at the pass and to extol the virtues of a productive and informative weekend college visit. Craig alerted his floor mates to Mariah’s situation (mostly to ensure her private visits to the bathroom) and then happily introduced them all to each other. After a quick meal of sorts at The Shed, Rhett and Craig presented Mariah to a typically festive Spring night at Memorial Union. While Craig eventually had to depart in order to collect some records and broadcast his radio show, Rhett and Mariah ended up at the more subdued Union South for comical bowling and continued exposure to the sights and sounds of campus life. The night ended quietly with more pizza and more soda in Rhett’s room while listening to “Road To Nowhere.” Rhett silently drifted off to sleep on his bed leaving Mariah in the solitude of the moment. As she sat in one of the more comfortable chairs, allowing the chilly night time Spring breeze to caress her face, Mariah breathed deeply, letting her heart beat slow and unwound the weekend’s events in her mind like film unspooling from projector. She pondered the success to failure ratio of her visit thus far and quickly deduced that despite the troubling beginnings and unplanned morning odyssey, it was a voyage well worth taking and one she was already feeling disappointment at having to leave behind the next morning. Even the callousness of Josie Fagen already seemed to be eons away and failed to derail the weekend’s purpose. On the contrary, Josie’s actions quite possibly enhanced her positive feelings for the experience and for a split second, Mariah wondered if she should even thank Josie…but, even as a surprise to herself, she was not in a forgiving mood and would refuse to be so concerning her now former friend. Thinking back to the seemingly eternal hours she spent sitting alone in a foreign dormitory’s festivities, fending off the glances of drunken suitors, she began to feel a sense of pride at her own strength in the situation, which was presented with an untouchable standoffishness that no one was truly brave enough to breach. She never knew she had it in her and she discovered a certain and previously unforeseen power. She had remained brave. She felt secure in her decisions of whom to place trust. In conversations held with Rhett and Craig, she surprised herself with her own assertiveness. At first, she felt is purely stemmed from her anger towards Josie but after a moment, she reasoned that if her assertions popped from her unexpectedly, those same feelings may have emerged at some point whether fueled by Josie or not. Maybe strength and assertiveness were qualities she had already possessed but never had the opportunity to try. There was no way to ever really know with unquestioned certainty but she didn’t want to diminish this discovery made at this moment at this institution. There was something so right with her current train of thought and while she didn’t want to elevate anything past the point of rationality, it was too important to ignore or discount. The rising elation she felt throughout her body spoke a truth to her that words couldn’t handle on their own. Mariah felt an ease with her surroundings, an ease she never felt in high school and the potential of feeling this way for hopefully extended periods and perhaps even stronger and more assured was definitely tempting. It felt as if she had shed a skin. That whatever had kept her quieter, as a follower, as one to be dragged along by the pursuits of those more adventurous, had now become something to be discarded.  
She had seen the potential of a future self and she didn’t want anything to cease that evolution. If it were possible, her college adventures in Madison would begin immediately.
     Mariah rose and strode across the room in a way as to not evaporate her building epiphany and began to investigate the contents of Rhett’s educational pursuits. She paged through his copious and visually frenetic notes. She thumbed through his textbooks on Philosophy and novels to study for Comp Lit. She inspected the resoundingly unfamiliar names of Derrida, Foucault, and Jung and chuckled quietly to herself as she envisioned the names as an organization of an ancient group of attorneys. She began to envision herself striding up and down Bascom Hill or walking down University Avenue, in a sea of students heading to one class or another. Picturing herself in these new surroundings made Mariah happily realize the thoughts felt less like a wish for a hoped future but more as an invitation that dangled in front of her awaiting fingers that she was anxious to accept. It was at this very moment that Mariah Esposito realized that she had fallen in love with the campus and she continued to envision herself in hoped for situations. She wanted to experience all of the lecture halls, crammed from top to bottom with students breathlessly taking notes from Professors of all kinds. She wanted to be drenched with the falling leaves that seemed to only exist on a college campus. Seeing as she was more of an introverted sort, the thought of carousing through the many libraries sent an excited tingle up her spine. She wanted more nights at Memorial Union. She wanted to meet new people from…everywhere! She even wanted the horrifically bad dorm food. Every element added to the whole and she wanted it all. The atmosphere of this campus was inexplicably comforting and she just wanted more and more of it and right now.
     Surprising herself again, she realized that she wanted to learn more about Craig Hughes. While he was alternately shy or awkward with his sense of humor, which she did feel was over compensating for any sense of shyness, he had been a truly gracious host and a person she felt she would love to have on her side in this environment. As she listened to his radio program, she heard a different side to Craig. He sounded more confident, more self-assured and perhaps it was because he was in his natural element of music, a quality she found admirable during their visit to Memorial Union. The music he played on his program mostly consisted of pop songs of varying styles, intensity and moods but all of it contained a slightly left-of-center quality that felt obscure to her ears. Much like everything else she had experienced this weekend, the music served as another invitation to a place beyond what she already knew and again, she wanted more. As his radio program continued to provide a soundtrack to her new awakenings, she felt a synchronicity that she wanted to acknowledge personally. Impulsively, she reached for the telephone, began to dial the often repeated request line number, and after the too-late beginnings of the ringing tone on the other end, her heart began racing.
     “WLHA?” Craig answered.
     “Hello,” she began tentatively. “Um…may I speak with Craig Hughes?”
     That voice again. That unmistakable, siren-like voice.
     “Mariah?”
     “Yes! How did you know it was me?” she asked quizzically.
     Not wanting to give himself away, Craig tried to act quickly. “Just a lucky guess…I guess,” he said, feigning a certain slyness that he was uncertain was terribly successful.
     “I see.”
     Immediately seizing upon a dark thought, Craig worriedly asked, “Are you OK?”
     “Yes, I’m fine. What’s wrong? You sound concerned?”
     “Where are you?”
     “I’m at Rhett’s. He’s sleeping and I’m just…” Mariah breathed a deep, happy sigh. “I‘m just taking it all in.”
     “Oh,” said Craig, sounding relieved. “I had this vision that you had been abandoned once again at some party.”
     Mariah laughed heartedly at the notion of cruel fate occurring twice in a weekend as Craig luxuriated within the sound of her melodic amusement. “If I am ever subjected to anything like that again, just shoot me because it will definitely be of my own lack of judgment!”
     “Glad to hear that all is well.”
     “It certainly is.”
     Pause.
     “So…” Craig began cautiously. “Why are you calling?”
     “Would you prefer that I hadn’t?” asked Mariah with a flirtatiousness that even took her by shock. It was too late to return that tone back into her body.
     “No. That’s not what I meant at all,” he stammered. “I’m just surprised…Happily surprised.”
     “I guess I’m surprised too.”
     “How so?”
     “I just didn’t think I’d get through. I’ve never really known anyone to get through to a radio station. Not that I’ve ever tried it myself…Until now, that is.”
     “No worries there,” Craig chuckled. “I hardly ever get calls or requests.”
     “Really? I like your show. It has a good…vibe…I don’t know if that’s the word I’m looking for. But, I’m having a good time listening to it.”
     “Why thank you!” gushed a positively flattered Craig. “I mean—it’s late Saturday night. I would imagine that there aren’t too many people around in their dorms listening to the radio right now. And then, there’s the issue of our highly deficient wattage to deal with. I’m amazed that you can even hear me now.”
      “It’s as clear as a bell.”
     “Hmmm. That means the wind is blowing in the right direction.”
     Mariah laughed and Craig was pleased she found his comment humorous.
     “So, why do you do this if you don’t get requests, calls and wonder if anyone is listening in the first place?”
     “God!” he beamed. “Why wouldn’t I do this?”
     “Childhood fantasy fulfilled?” asked Mariah, completely picking up on the source of Craig’s joy.
     “I couldn’t have said it better myself. You have a great way with words, you know.”
     “Why thank you, sir.”
     Another brief pause.
     “What is this music you’re playing now?” Mariah inquired.
     “Mott The Hoople.”
     “Who?”
     “Mott The Hoople,” Craig began to explain, and hoping to ring the correct bells of musical memories. “They’re a 70’s band. David Bowie wrote their song ‘All The Young Dudes’.”
     “I don’t know what that is.”
     “Really?” asked an honestly stunned Craig, who still found it difficult to comprehend people who hadn’t previously heard songs which he felt were universally familiar. “Maybe you would know it if I played it. I’d have to look for it though and I really hope we have it. I mean-any self respecting radio station would have that song but we are notorious for not having even the most seminal works,” he chuckled.
     “You know, even if you did play it, I really don’t think I would know it at all. “  Then, ensuring no signs of disappointment were inferred, she added sweetly, “But don’t let me stop you. I’d love to hear it”
     “A rare request…sort of,” he laughed. “I will look for it.”
     “Great,” she said and then after a brief pause she added, ”Thank you Mr. DJ!” with another unexpected bout of honey sounding flirtatiousness (before she knew it, she had even dropped her voice a register) that indeed sent the intended chemically emotional response to Craig, who then nearly bumped into the record player’s stylus on the upcoming track he had selected for broadcast.
     And after that momentary firework blast…silence. A somewhat lengthy one at that.  Within that silence, Craig and Mariah both mentally returned to that fleeting instance where their brains and hearts were happily and confoundingly scrambled by the Botkin House bathroom the night before. Again, Craig was unsure as to what he had heard, the tone in which he heard it as well as the intent and possibility that she would ever be of interest to him. If he did hear what he felt he heard, perhaps it wasn’t even directed to him. Perhaps she was feeling frisky for some unknown reason and just let it out. It would’ve happened anytime, anywhere. Mariah was equally unsure as to where this unusual behavior emerged from and exactly what it was about this person that allowed her to behave this way. Perhaps he saw right through her as some silly high school girl feebly trying to create a worldly romantic façade she could not have possibly have earned in any way at this stage of her life. What they were both absolutely, positively and completely certain of was that neither one of them wanted to hang up the telephone.
     Finally, breaking the silence, Craig spoke. “Would you mind holding on for just a minute?”
     “You know…I could just get going.”
     “Oh no,” he said, a little too hurriedly. “I just have to grab a few more records to get the next set started. This song’s about over and besides, I have a request to fill.”
     Mariah smiled and she hoped that Craig could hear it.

     Once the voice of Robyn Hitchcock announced the station’s call letters, (an audio snippet designed to also signal a musical tonal change in song selections), Mariah’s ears were greeted with the opening somnambulistic chords and narcotic beat of U2’s “Love Comes Tumbling.” Mariah felt like picking Craig’s brain about life on the UW campus, an interview Craig was only too happy to oblige.
     “I realize this might be a cliché, but…what’s your major?” she inquired with a knowing giggle.
     “I am actually undeclared right now.”
     “Is that bad? Don’t you have to have one?
     “No. Not right away. It’s not like the ‘University Major Police’ will seek you out or anything. My parents, on the other hand…that’s a whole another ball of pressure. If they had their way, I would have picked my major during Sophomore year of high school!”
     “Maybe your parents and my parents should get together.”
     “Really? Are you under the microscope too?”
     “Very much so. Don’t get me wrong. I love my parents. I cannot imagine a world without the two of them in it. It’s like they have always been here, you know? I do realize they only want the best for me so I can’t complain terribly much about it but yes…it would be nice if they eased up a little from time to time. It’s like they feel that I’m not hearing what they’re saying or that I am actively choosing to not listen or worse yet, ignore them. I am honestly hanging onto their every word but when they say the same things for an hour, it’s just gets to be too much sometimes.”
     Craig exuded an empathetic laugh. “I completely understand what you mean! My parents are like an endurance tag team. One of them will lay into me for one thing or another for seemingly an eon and then, when it seems like it’s going to slow down, Mom will pass the baton to Dad or he will pass the baton to her and then they go at it with me. I’m amazed that they never seem to run out of words, breath or energy. I don’t think they really take into account that the act of listening takes up almost even more energy.”
     “Do they try to quiz you on what they’ve said?”
     “Mercilessly,” he snickered dryly. “And…I think they actually enjoy that part so I have to stay on my toes.”
     “I will amend my earlier statement. Our parents should definitely meet. They could hold a summit, passionately discuss our respective futures and share any deep worries they have for their obviously and completely unfocused children,” she laughed.
     Laughing a little harder, Craig added, “I would really hate to be the subject of that kind of a summit!”
     “So back to your status as undeclared,” said Mariah. “Do you have any ideas of what you might want to do?”
     “Yes. I know it’s not what my parents would want for me but then again, I think they would be happy if I picked something. But, I am thinking of Communication Arts. They have three different course tracks you can take and the Radio-TV-Film track is the one that speaks to me. I originally wanted to be a Journalism major but after looking at the courses which many of them looked to be like classes in law, it lost its luster for me.”
     “So, you’re a writer?”
     “I don’t know…I just know that I like to write. Its one of the only things I feel comfortable with. I think I told people I wanted to be Journalism major back in high school just so people would stop asking me what I wanted to major in. I always felt like I had to say something.”
     “I have to admit, that line of questioning is grating to say the least. I mean—just let me graduate from high school first. I do have a few weeks left yet, as well as a graduation ceremony to attend to. Do I have to know my entire college destiny now?”
     “Please don’t hang up when I ask you this but…do you have any ideas of what you want to major in?”
     “I won’t hang up. Don’t worry. Ummm…you know, I have always had this thing for History.”
     “Really?”
    “Don’t you?”
    “Well…it’s not like I have anything against history. No vendettas, arguments or accusations against it. Not like Science.”
     “Mortal enemies?” Mariah asked.
     “To the bitter end, definitely,” Craig laughed somewhat painfully as the sound of his disapproving parents flashed through his brain. “But History…It’s hard for me, I guess. If it is not connected to a topic I’m already interested in, the dates and places get jumbled in my head. I mean—I could give you the history of a band or the entire life track of a director and how that path may relate to something else but if you tossed say…the life path of King Agamemnon at me, I’d drown. What is it about History that appeals to you?”
     “Weeeelllll,” Mariah drawled to Craig’s content, “I know when I was younger, it was really a fascination with how much simpler life seemed to be. I guess it was something more romantic than real but still…I think what really grabbed me was this Social Studies teacher I had last year. She was a lawyer. She only taught from time to time and she was really one of those teachers you’d never want to cross. I mean—the first day of class, she like gets up in front of everyone and lays down her own personal and exhaustive Magna Carta, to which she ends with ‘And if any of you think I’m a BITCH, then that’s right!! I’m a BITCH!!’” she concluded after demonstrating bloodthirsty imitation.
     “So, you liked History because you were under duress?”
     “No,” she laughed. “What got to me was this idea that just because it is in a book doesn’t always mean that’s the way it happened. She used to always say that while there’s truth in facts, facts aren’t necessarily the truth and how we must always, always, always question everything including her! I thought that was brave. I mean-she was the first teacher I ever had that that really seemed to want for us to think, you know? She challenged us to not take everything at face value and that History is about everything that’s left out as much as everything that’s left in. And why were things left out and all of the stories that can come from why things were left in and out and so on and I got to thinking that History is the account of every single person that lived it and that’s when I fell in love with it. I really like thinking about what came before me, what came before my parents and my friends and just people I don’t know at all. I mean—who walked this campus long before you and Rhett got here? Who built this place? Why were things designed to look they way they do? It’s all connected, I guess and I like looking at the connections. Ooooh! I just love architecture and art history too and I was just looking through Rhett’s books and notes and I just can’t wait to find out more and…I’m rambling aren’t I? Just going off, huh?”
     “No, not at all!” said Craig filled with a growing affection for this girl who had taken the time to call him up. “I really get a clearer picture of it. I guess I never thought of History that way. In fact, it sounds a lot like how Rhett thinks of things too.”
     “Yeah. He gets his head in the clouds quite a bit. Before I knew him, I used to think he was perpetually stoned but I realized he’s just naturally in another place.”
     “I can see that. You know, he was very right about you too.”
     “How so?”
     “He told me that when you don’t tend to say terribly much but when you get going, you get going.”
     “Ah, so he thinks I can’t just shut up, huh?” she mused while compulsively twirling the telephone cord.
     “I really don’t think that’s what he meant. I’m glad to hear you and hear what you think about things. And besides, I’m a captive audience…happily so and what else am I gonna do anyway?”
      “Um…your radio show, perhaps?”
     “That’s easy. I’ve got songs and songs lined up.”
     And so he did. They conversed through World Party’s “All Come True,” chatted through Oingo Boingo’s “Long Breakdown,” parlayed through The DBs “I Lie,” and prattled through Fleetwood Mac’s “Sands Of Time.” For both Mariah and Craig, time became elastic as before either of them even realized it, 50 minutes had passed without a trace of dead air, either on or off the air, had occurred. Soon, it was almost time for Craig to end his broadcast and whatever gossamer thread held the two together in stimulating conversation, he was anxious not to break it and he hoped she felt the same. So, he tried to push it a little bit longer.
     “So, are you definitely coming here?”
     “After this weekend, there is absolutely no question in my mind in the least,” said Mariah with a clear-eyed certainty that matched her words.
     “Then my work here is done!” said Craig with a deep-voiced mock bravado.
     “You should work for the university then,” she said.
     “Who knows? Maybe I will. But until that day arrives, I was also wondering if you have any idea of where you might live?”
     “Who knows what the collective deities of student housing will do with me but I can tell you that I listed Chabourne Hall as my top choice. Girls only, you know, but at least it’s not the…what did you call it…oh yeah…’The Virgin Vault’.”
     “Look…I’m sorry about that. It’s just a name that’s goes all over campus and…”
     “Don’t worry about it,” she consoled. “I was just mad about Josie and everything was making me angry then. It already feels like a year ago. So, yes, going back to housing, I wanted a place that was girls only.”
     “Ah…girls only,” said Craig sounding more relaxed after being released from his early morning faux-pas, which did indeed already feel like a year ago. “I can relate. I picked where I’m living because it was boys only but you know, there’s girls around so much of the time that I’ve just gotten used to it.”
     “Is that so?” she asked flirtatiously.
     “Hey! I didn’t say they were coming from my room. I just said that they were around.”
     “OK then. Because, if you were the campus lothario, I would have no idea of how you ever got any studying done at all. I am fully aware of the reputation this school has for partying…and so do my parents so that is making them trepidatious about having me attend.”
     “I feel that I must respond to both points. First off, the concept of me being a campus lothario. I’m flattered and ultimately confounded as to how you could have ever come up with that descriptive term for me,” he began laughing.
     “Why would that be so hard to believe?” she inquired coquettishly.
     “Because,“  he began tentatively and thinking of the current non-existent state of his romantic life, “it’s just not true.” After a hiccup of a pause he continued. “Anyhow, as for your second point about this being a party school. I had a high school classmate who was a year ahead of me tell me when I was finishing high school that maybe I should re-think coming here because this is such a party school. He told me that he just couldn’t get anything done and he actually transferred to somewhere else. But, you know, all I could think of is who put the gun to his head and told him to go to the party and not study. This school has about 40,000 students and there’s so many other things to do than party and besides, you’ll be so busy that you really won’t have time to party that much.”
     “So what do you do?”
     “Well…it may sound boring to you or others but I love going to movies, hanging out at the Union, doing this radio show…man, just sitting in the dorm hallways with my friends and just talking for hours and hours is great. I wouldn’t trade it for anything.”
     “That doesn’t sound boring to me,” she said tenderly. “In fact, I think that really sounds…perfect.”
     Another pause to allow the words to sail through the telephone wires to Craig’s ears and heart.
     “Well…I know you’ll have Rhett around but if you need a study partner…”
     “Oh…you’ll be a Junior then. I’m sure you’d be too busy for anything like that.”
     “I’m just putting it out there. And trust me, you’ll be busy too. You’ll be so busy that you just may even skip a class just to do the work for it. In fact, there will even be times when your body just says, ‘No.’”
     “What do you mean my body will just say ‘No’?”
     “Not long ago, I got up for class as always. I took my shower, got dressed, went to ‘The Virgin Vault’ for my morning orange juice, walked down Bascom Hill to the Humanities building for an English lecture. I got to the door, placed my hand on the door handle, opened it, looked inside and somehow, someway, my body said, ‘No.’ And somehow, by some force that didn’t seem to come from me, I closed the door and walked down to Library Mall and just sat by the fountain and watched people.”
     “You skipped class?!”
     “Yup, I did! Now, what I said about skipping classes to do the homework, that’s very true. There are just times where I felt that the little time I had would be better spent doing the work then sitting listening to a lecture. But, on this day…that morning at least, I just did…nothing. Now, it’s nothing I make a habit of and it was a great day but I think my body was telling me to unplug a little. So I did.”
     “Wow!” she exhaled incredulously.
     “Do me a favor please…just don’t tell my parents because if they knew I had even skipped one class, they would tag-team me until I was 38!”
     “Your secret is safe with me.”
     “Mariah…I really, really hate to do this but speaking of unplugging, I’ve reached then end of my show and I have to get a couple tunes before we go off the air.”
     “Oh…do you need me to hang up?”
     “Please don’t. Not just yet. Would you hang on for another minute though?”
     “Sure.”
     It was a magical night and Mariah deeply meant what she had said about the adventures of that very morning feeling like they had transpired a year in the past. In fact, she has felt as if she had gone further through her metamorphosis and her emergence into that person she wanted to become was even more of a reality. Listening to the song on the radio, she began to sway against the wall, swinging the telephone cord languorously to the beat, feeling so charmed and lifted by the night, the soundtrack and the conversation. It had to end, of course but maybe there was some way to carry it with her.
     “I’m back,” said Craig returning to the phone.
     “What song is this?”
     “This is ‘They Never Will Know’ by Marshall Crenshaw.”
     “It’s pretty.”
     “Yeah, I love it too.”
     “Look…did you say that you tape your shows?”
     “Yeah.”
     “I was wondering. Do you think there would be a way to make a copy for me?”
     “Absolutely!! I can do it right after I go off the air.”
     “Oh you don’t have to go to that kind of trouble. You could just send it to me. Rhett knows my address.”
     “It’s fine. I’d be so happy to do it.”
     “Why…thank you,” she said, genuinely touched by the gesture.
     “I actually have to go this time, Mariah. I have to talk on the air now.”
     “Oh! Well…let me let you go then.”
     “Yeah,” he said, not knowing what else to say.
     “I really hope that we can talk again soon, Craig. Thank you so much again for last night and this morning. If most people on this campus are anything like you, then this will be a very rewarding experience for me.”
     “I…I don’t know what to say,” said a deeply affected Craig. “Um…thank you, Mariah. I really hope we can talk again soon too.”
     “Well…bye and good night,” she said sweetly.
     “Good night to you too.”
     They hung up.
     As the final notes faded into the night’s airwaves, Craig breathed a long, soulful sigh. To what he owed for receiving a wonderful exchange such as this he did not know and for a moment, he actually questioned if Mariah even knew to whom she was speaking.
     Mariah was also in a state of afterglow only returning to the present by the sleepy grumblings of Rhett, who was now stirring on his bed.
     “Did you say something?” he croaked.
     Mariah answered him with the most bashful of smiles. She wasn’t ready to divulge just yet.

     The following morning as Rhett was preparing to escort Mariah back to the bus destined for Minneapolis, Mariah made a discovery that allowed her to contain the previous evening’s magic to herself a bit longer. It sat just outside of Rhett’s door. Addressed to her was a cassette containing the entirety of Craig’s radio show, which only ended hours earlier. Along with completely annotated details of the songs and artists, there was a brief note.
     “Just as requested here is last night’s show. Thank you so very much. I had a great time! Have a safe trip
back home and I really do hope we cross paths again once you come to Madison.
                                                                                        Take care,
                                                                                            Craig”
     There was so much to ponder and wonder as she rode home. She indeed felt as certain as before. She would be attending college in Madison in just a few short months, which of course felt eons away due to her intense anticipation.
     Mariah Esposito completed high school in early June sailing though her final exams with a focus that even amazed her already proud parents. She quickly attained a summer job to assist with payment for her upcoming school supplies and books and by August, she was more than ready. As she stepped from her home into her parents’ car for the drive into her future, she celebrated the time by listening again to her cassette, on which the final song was directed exclusively to her. It was indeed “All the Young Dudes,” where Craig introduced with a sweet, “Even the familiar is new somewhere for someone.”
    How true, she thought. Mariah listened to the show and the song in particular over and over. While she would mostly be unsure as to the song original meaning, she felt that for her, it was a song of the future. One that she was bursting to meet head on.
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Sunday, February 8, 2015

"DECEMBER BOYS" PART SEVEN: A PILGRIMAGE ON A TIMELESS NIGHT (4th section)

  
DECEMBER BOYS
"A PILGRIMAGE ON A
TIMELESS NIGHT" 
(4th section)
     The triumvirate emerged onto the top of Bascom Hill, wrapped in the crisp embrace of a cool Spring Saturday morning as the sunlight splintered through the tress to gently settle itself upon the morning dew graced grass. The invigorating breeze became a source of cleansing to Mariah Esposito as the clear air filled her lungs to give herself measured breaths but it also released the cobwebs of the night before to make way for her determination to find, confront and ultimately throttle Josie Fagen. If there happened to be any interference with the airwaves of her anger, it came from the two boys who flanked her, obviously coasting on the waves of their own fumes and lunacy. At any other time, and definitely in the very near future, Mariah would remember this morning with a gratitude that would sometimes render her completely speechless. That these two boys, one of whom she didn’t even know, cared for her safety so guilelessly to watch over her and ensure she was protected and vindicated, reached her heart in ways to counteract the callousness of Josie’s inconsiderate actions. But for now, Mariah compulsively stroked and brushed her mane towards and away from her ears, as if to bat away an annoying gnat but to actually quiet the increasingly raucous laughter that erupted from Craig and Rhett, seemingly as often as the plants and flowers budded from the earth all along both sides of the hill.
     “Oh my God!” shouted Craig, nearly halfway down the path. “There was this time last year when Jon and I were coming back from State Street. We were heading up the hill and then, there was this girl, who was obviously heading out for the night, all dressed up in hot pants and heels strutting down the hill. When all of a sudden, the gnomes under the earth pushed up the ground and baby girl did the ‘Stop, Drop and Roll’!”
     “Oh shit!” sputtered Rhett.
     “She totally just fell out!”
     “And that was funny to you?” Mariah somehow seemed to appear to give each of the boys a disapprovingly serpentine sideways glance which immediately made Craig re-think the timing of his story. Perhaps it should’ve been something to save during a more private moment with Rhett but hoping to save face, Craig began to backpedal…sort of.
     “Well, you see, this girl was probably from the Virgin Vault.”
     “The what?!” asked Mariah sharply.
     “Ummm…I mean, Liz Waters Hall.”
     “They sometimes call it the Virgin Vault,” interjected Rhett.
     “Why?” challenged Mariah with surprising alacrity.
     “Uh…I dunno,” muttered Craig sensing and fearing her disappointment with him. “It’s just a stupid name.” If Craig were able to force his baseball cap over the fullness of his skull, he would’ve done just so at this moment. Unfortunately, Mariah wasn’t quite finished but fortunately, this was the most he had had the opportunity to hear her low, slow, honeyed voice.
     “OK, so I am to understand that this girl, from the dorm, nicknamed probably by some guy who was thankfully turned away by what I would think would be every girl who lived there, was minding her own business to go out on a Friday night stumbles on this hill and you and your roommate just laughed at her? Didn’t you help her?”
     “Hey Judge Wopner, it’s cool. It’s cool!” quipped Rhett.
     “No, it’s…not quite like that,” Craig addressed Mariah. “I mean—she certainly didn’t appear to be someone who was in any sort of dire need.” Craig imagined a cartoon aeroplane in a determined slow descent with each word he spoke. “I mean, she tripped and fell and rolled and popped back up and walked off to State Street without one look back.”
      “And exactly why was this funny to you?”
      “Mariah, lay off! Haven’t you ever laughed at someone who slipped on the ice or anything?” asked Rhett. “What’s the big deal?”
     Again, Mariah gave each of the boys her disapproving serpentine sideways glance and with utter disappointment, she gravely announced through exhalation, “Boys will be boys, I guess.” With that, the topic was closed and the threesome continued down the hill in complete silence.

     By the time the three set their collective feet upon the soil of Library Mall, it was apparently clear that aside from the stray early morning joggers and the ritual set-up of the famous fruit stand between Memorial Library and University Book Store, the student body of the University of Wisconsin-Madison, was asleep. This observation was echoed by the sights of the nearly stopped tower clock and the dormant fountain, the Mall’s centerpiece and grand communal area for students, tourists and small children. The activity upon State Street was the inverse of the night before. The only sounds were of their soft footsteps upon the pavement and the morning breeze through their ears, which carried the faint stench of spilled beer congealed with piss as they passed by alley ways decorated with crumpled TYME receipts and vomit stains. As they silently approached the Capitol, they could begin to detect sounds that were not of their making and once the Capitol was in full view, they were exposed to a sight heretofore unseen to each of them.
     “God! It looks like the whole city of Madison is here,” uttered Rhett. “What is this?”
     “I wonder if this is the Farmer’s Market,” said Craig. “I’ve heard people talk about it but I’ve never seen it. Look at all of these people! Let’s check it out!”
     After crossing the street to join the stream of their Madisonian bretheren, a new threshold had also been crossed and there was no turning back. Sometimes laugher is best when it is completely exposed and fully relinquished from its holder and shared with the world. A laughter beyond hearty or even a bellowed guffaw. A laughter that is uncontainable, uncontrollable and reduces the person to a puddle of wheezes, clutched sides and a face full of tears. Craig and Rhett’s recent silence in reverence to Mariah’s rage had been lost the moment they spotted a large sign by one of the food carts advertising their cheese curds—“OUR CHEESE CURDS ARE SO FRESH THEY SQUEAK!!”
     That was it.
     The simple thought of something edible squeaking to the touch to determine its ultimate freshness and quality to the consumer was a line that crossed the boys further into their sleep deprived mind state. After that moment, and much to Mariah’s discontent, everything became funny.
     Designs upon balloons, local politicians hawking their latest cause, jewelry and clothing made from hemp all provided a feast for their folly. Passing along the juggling antics by the local children’s performer known only as the Truly Remarkable Loon, Rhett dryly, ironically and predictably uttered to Craig, “Damn! That loon is just…truly…remarkable.”
     By the time they happened along a group of Peruvian musicians (all performing a collection of guitars and pan flutes and backed by a rhythm track infectiously flowing through a boom box), Craig, through choked strains of laughter proclaimed to an equally dilapidated Rhett, “You know John Tesh wants his house band back by 4:00.”
     If the circumstances of the situation were any different, Mariah would’ve easily allowed herself to join in the communal spirit of her now nearly useless protectors. Once the passage of time had created a fair share of distance between herself and this moment, Mariah Esposito would exhale breaths of thankfulness concerning Rhett’s friendship and especially, the thoughtfulness and generosity of Craig Hughes, still essentially a complete stranger. But for now, each footstep through the sea of culinary patrons was consumed with venom directed towards Josie Fagen.  As if on the predetermined theatrical cues of actor placement and lighting, the Saturday morning crowd of happy families, artists, and peddlers all seemed to part, like a curtain, to reveal the sight of Josie Fagen, complete with croissant and steaming morning coffee, staring upwards at the figure of Troy Blake.
     Standing at slightly over six feet tall, the first sight of Troy Blake was an admittedly impressive one. He stood as if knowingly and proudly on display for celebratory public viewing with his clear, dark eyes, smooth skin without a hint of stubble, high cheek bones and perfectly slicked and coiffed black hair, with strategically placed strands hanging into his eyes like Bryan Ferry readying himself  to sing “Avalon” --just for you! His expensive clothing also purposefully meant for public viewing, yet rumpled and wrinkled to belie their cost, hung as lovingly on his frame as clothing appeared to on Craig’s idol John Cusack. Even the loafers looked as if they were made to rest specifically on those feet and only those feet. To only perceive of Troy Blake as some glamour boy was corrected by his obvious care of his thin yet firm athletic physique courtesy of exercise regiments five days a week at a Lakeshore gymnasium and vigorous touch football with friends. For a split second, the dither and din of the Farmer’s Market appeared to phase into a momentary hush to allow all the proper silence to witness a sight as attractive at this. Even the unrestrained laughter from Craig and Rhett (despite himself), and Mariah’s swelling fury, held a pause…but not for long.
     “JOSIE!!” shouted Mariah, shocking everyone out of their reverie.
     “Oh, hey Mariah,” began Josie as if the entire events of the night before had never happened. “Surprised seeing you here at the market. Wanna get a croissant? I’m not even remotely finished with this one and I know that I just have to get another. They are just so perfectly flaky and buttery.” And then for a final delectable effect, Josie uttered a satisfied, “Mmmmm! So good!”
     “Where were you last night? What happened last night?” asked Mariah with steady unceremonious brusqueness to match her approaching footsteps and also showing that she was not at all deflected by Josie’s invitation.
     “Um…this is Troy!” Josie smiled as if the introduction explained all Mariah needed to know.
     “Hi Mariah!” greeted a positively beaming Troy as he extended his hand. To Mariah’s surprise, he had a disarming voice that was a little higher in pitch that she had imagined he would sound and definitely warmer sounding than the “unctuousness” of Rhett’s description.      
     Not wanting to be rude, as was her upbringing, she shook Troy’s hand briefly and returned her gaze to Josie. “How could you leave me like that?”
     “Leave you?! You seemed to be just fine and truth be told…I didn’t want to cramp your effortless and obvious show stopping style as there were at least several guys just eyeing you.”
     “I didn’t come here to meet guys. I came here to see you! Where did you even expect me to sleep last night? You didn’t even exactly leave me your room keys.”
     “Oh…,” started Josie with a delighted purr and a wink in her voice, “…well…I thought you’d find your way.”
      “Fuck you!” screamed Mariah as angry tears popped from her eyes and she took a few more determined steps towards Josie.
      “Whoa! Take it easy, sweets,” started Josie with a detached calmness and was that even a hint of irritation? “It’s a safe campus. Nothing would’ve happened to you.”
     “How would you know? Did you know all of those guys there?” shouted Mariah taking another step. “How would you fucking know?!” Another step.  “Did you talk to them?” Two more steps. “Are they all your friends?” One more step. “Did you tell them that despite their alcoholic rave they were specifically instructed to not rape me last night?!” (By this point, Troy Blake had slyly taken about three strategic steps away from Josie. “You left me!” shoved Mariah into Josie’s shoulder. “Why did you do that?!”
     “Mariah,” began Josie in a quietly frustrated tone, like a parent not wanting to show anger to their child but definitely wants to convey that the subject at hand is a closed one. “This is college. Not high school and if you’re gonna make it here, or anywhere else for that matter, you’re just gonna have to get over it and grow up a little.”
     Mariah Esposito’s proverbial last straw had been broken as she quickly and violently upturned Josie’s coffee all over her face and then proceeded to give her one powerful right cross against Josie’s hot, wet check. Mariah then rapidly turned on her heel and headed back towards Rhett and Craig, who were now holding each other upright with laughter at Josie’s momentary comeuppance and Troy’s weak support as he comforted Josie while strategically not getting his clothes stained. The boys eventually pulled themselves together enough to follow Mariah’s mane back to State Street only to see Mariah whip-crack her body once again back in Josie Fagen’s direction.
     “What?! Do you want the other side now?” said Josie angrily as she still dried herself off.
     “Look, I’m sorry about all of this,” Troy inserted. “I didn’t know anything about any of this. Is there anything I can…”
      “Shut up!” hurled Mariah with a voice that surprised herself and even felt sorry for immediately after she spoke. “Give me your keys!” she ordered Josie.
     “What?”
     “Give me your keys!!”
     Josie slowly fished inside of her pockets for hey dorm keys and once slightly in view, Mariah snatched them, headed back towards State Street with Rhett and Craig in tow and leaving a chapter of her life behind with a throbbing left cheek and soaked in hazelnut scented coffee.
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Tuesday, January 27, 2015

"DECEMBER BOYS" PART SIX: A PILGRIMAGE ON A TIMELESS NIGHT (3rd section)


DECEMBER BOYS
"A PILGRIMAGE ON A TIMELESS NIGHT" 
(3rd section)
Rhett and Craig returned to the vibrating Friday night decadence of Ogg Hall for a brief lavatory pit-stop to find Rhett's aggressively blinking answering machine light awaiting them. Craig descended to Rhett's roommate's bed while Rhett pressed the button to hear the synthetic voice coo, "You have ONE new message." Then, the boys heard the luxurious voice of Mariah Esposito, yet it was cloaked in a mixture of fear and irritation as it fought its' way through the wall of voices and drunken chants of "Red Red Wine.”
     "Rhett, I really hope you hear this message soon. Ummm…Josie…uh…Josie left me. I think she's with some guy and I don't know where she is. Frankly, I really don't know where I am…"
     "YOU'RE IN KRONSHAGE!!!!!" offered a drunken fool.
     "You get that? I'm in Kronshage! Please come find me. I don't know how to get to your dorm."
     "BEEP!" said the answering machine for final emphasis on the situation.
     "Kronshage?" began Craig rising from the bed. "That's Lakeshore. That's my place. Let's go get her!"
     And with that, the two boys immediately left Rhett's dorm room in pursuit of Mariah Esposito.

     Despite the late spring evening chill coming from Lake Mendota through the Kronshage Residence halls windows, Mariah Esposito silently simmered by the stereo, doing her very best to appear unfriendly and avoid contact with a roomful of drunken strangers, pondering just how things went wrong on this night. No, that's not true. Mariah knew exactly how things went wrong on this night. The same way events tended to sway away from Mariah whenever Josie was involved. The true question was why she continued to allow herself to remain on the shallow end of Josie Fagen's constant pursuit of happiness. Like everyone else who came into contact with Josie Fagen, Mariah was not immune to her spell. The two girls met in the fourth grade and became fast friends much to the chagrin of Mariah's fiercely hard-working and cautious parents, Frank and Carmen Esposito. Even at this precise moment, Mariah clearly heard their voices chanting a lifetime's worth of mantras in her brain yet the one which poked through the morass of homilies was, "Always know where you are and always know who you are with!" I guess I screwed that one up on both counts, she cursed to herself.
     It was so much fun in the beginning. Where Mariah's family, while loving, was more serious and at times, exuded an immense sense of over-protectiveness, partially due to the fact that Mariah was an only child, the trajectory of life she was placed onto was dry at best, strikingly rigid at worst and unshakable all of the time. The arrival of Josie Fagen gave Mariah a window into life's possibilities and options. Mariah's entrance into Josie's world was comparable to Dorothy blending into a world of color after living in black and white in "The Wizard Of Oz.” When they first met, Josie Fagen emanated an essence of sophistication coupled with an intense yet world weary curiosity that bordered on the exotic to Mariah Esposito's nine year old eyes and she had felt so fortunate that her interest had been reciprocated. Mariah was also attracted to the subtle differences in their lives, for instance, Josie had two siblings where she herself had none, Mariah lived in a house while Josie lived in a high rise apartment, and then there were Josie's parents, who were no-less hard working but so much more relaxed than her own parents. During one visit to Josie's home, Mariah nearly keeled over to hear a swear word loudly and somewhat proudly emerge from the mouth of Daniel Fagen, Josie's younger brother. He arrived home after racing home from his moments-ago cancelled baseball practice drenched and muddy. He shook himself off and wiped his feet with an exaggerated sense of frustration and for the exclamation point of this moment, Daniel Fagen shouted, "Shit!” in the way pre-pubescent kids utilize profanities when they are more than obviously trying them out for size.
     "Daniel, is there something wrong?” asked his father Walter as he calmly sliced cucumbers for the Fagen family's evening salad.
     "Dad! I just got so damn soaked getting home from practice!” bellowed Daniel petulantly drying himself. "I'm just a damn drowned rat!” he concluded for further emphasis.
     "Just go into the bathroom and clean up. There's no need for dramatics,” instructed his father with a bemused smirk. Daniel stomped his way to the family bathroom and that was that.
     Meanwhile, Mariah and Josie had been quietly going through a round of backgammon upon Daniel's profane entrance. After witnessing the proceedings, Mariah's mouth hung open as if she had been slapped moments ago and was straining for words to form in her brain to travel to her mouth which was waiting to utter them.
     "Josie?" Mariah finally whispered.
     "What?" Josie whispered back.
     "Daniel said 'Shit!'" said Mariah still shocked.
     "And?” asked Josie unmoved.
    "No, he said "Shit!"
    "And?" asked Josie with a hint of irritation of Mariah simply not getting to the point of this discussion.
     "My parents would kill me if I ever said anything like that at home," Mariah finally explained.
     "Oh,” uttered Josie, finally understanding Mariah's tone of disbelief. "My parents let us swear only if we understand what the words mean and if we don't abuse the privilege,” she explained humorlessly and with a flick and flair of her wrists as she rolled the dice and swiftly made her final moves in their game, Josie announced, "I win."

     When Mariah cautiously recounted this tale to her father, Frank Esposito began to laugh violently while looking at his impressionable daughter as a person who had obviously lost whatever God given sense was given to her. "A privilege?!" he roared. "My dear, people that partake in a liberal use of profanity are people who have nothing of value to say and they also have nothing of value for you to listen to," he began. "I truly and deeply question the judgment of Josie's parents but that is their house and it is not my place to judge them. But in this house, you will not ever use such language!" said Frank with rising force in his voice. And then for the coup de grace, "Your Mother and I did not waste our time raising a daughter to utilize unintelligible speech at home or in public. The way you speak to people informs them of what kind of a person you are. Remember that." And another Esposito family homily had been spoken and duly noted by Mariah.
     Mariah Esposito was not a child who was in desperate need to rebel against her parents. On the contrary, her relationship with her parents was a foundation of love and support in her life and one she would willingly and happily continue to draw from even deeply into her adulthood. Yet, at this point in her pre-pubescent and eventual adolescent life, she did want to stretch the confines to a degree and Josie was the perfect outlet to experiment and test the boundaries with, in initially (and relatively) safe formats, like faking illnesses to hang out in the school's nurse's office or returning late to homeroom from gym class due to playing in the snow.
     As their exploits increased in daring (or stupidity, depending upon whom you asked), there was one adventure in which Josie truly crossed the line. While riding the elevator to Josie's apartment, Josie had stopped the elevator between floors and somehow forced the doors open in order to see what would be on the other side. While all they saw was the gleaming silver of the elevator chamber, Josie did not have the foresight to figure out how to get the elevator doors closed, let alone how to get it started again. Obviously, the two girls were caught, their parents were notified and Mariah was of course destined to make a return trip to the Esposito family pulpit in which she was presented with a lengthy sermon passionately delivered by her Mother with fire and brimstone raging in her incredulous eyes.
     "This Josie Fagen is a narcissistic infant! I honestly do not know what her parents do with her, if anything at all. She's selfish, she carries no impulse control and worst of all, she claims to be your friend when she profoundly cares little to nothing about you. And before you even begin to protest and tell me about how close you are and what a great friend she is, think about what just happened to you in that elevator. What would posses her to stop an elevator between floors?! What would even then further posses her to open the elevator doors?! What if she also decided to push you out to see how quickly it would take for you to hit the bottom?! Like your Father has always expressed to you, you need to always be aware of where you are and who you are with. You have to look out for yourself, Mariah because you cannot depend upon someone else to do it for you especially if you get into trouble. It's simple human nature. People will protect themselves before they protect you and Josie strikes me as someone who will always follow her own path at your expense. I trust you will show much better judgment next time and simply leave. You are smart so be smart and listen to whatever it is inside of you—preferably  my voice in your brain--that tells you when something is wrong and follow accordingly!" Herendeth the lesson.
    
     In Mariah's senior year English class this year, the students had been assigned the classic, Peter Pan. If there was anything about the book that struck Mariah as notable was its' sadness and the somewhat desperate attitude, recklessness and ultimate loneliness of Peter. In fact, this book touched her so much that it was one of very few books she ever re-read. Sitting in Kronshage, being pummeled by the sound of screaming students forcing its way through the music and alcoholic haze and waiting for Rhett's rescue, she wished she could just curl up with that very book at this moment. It would be something to take her away from Josie's inconsiderateness but as she pondered the story, something became glaringly clear in her mind: Josie was her own personal Peter Pan. Maybe Josie wasn't as desperate as Peter and she definitely didn't seem lonely but she was shockingly inconsiderate. Mariah thought of a passage in which Peter, Wendy, Michael and John were flying in the night sky towards Never Never Land and Peter quickly flew onwards, forgetfully leaving his companions behind. As she thought of this sequence, her Mother's sermon from the elevator incident echoed in her brain and finally made complete sense to her. Even so, she decided that she wouldn't tell her parents about this. There was no need to add fuel to their fire against Josie Fagen. She would just have to handle this one herself.
     "Mariah!” shouted Rhett over the slinky chicken scratch guitar and rim shots of "Need You Tonight.” "Are you OK?"
     Mariah nodded in the affirmative yet said nothing as she slowly rose from her seated position, navigated through the room and out into the clear, cool night. Once outside, she noticed Craig from earlier that evening, standing by a tree looking out towards the lake. She surveyed his contemplative nature and decided right then and there to approach him.
     "Hi."
     Startled by her luxurious voice, Craig quickly turned to face Mariah and took a moment to find simple, introductory words to respond back to her greeting. "Uh…Hi." And then to ensure that whatever connection was made didn't immediately fade, he asked, "What happened to you?"

     "Well, we came to check out this party and Josie took it upon herself to ingratiate herself with some really tall, pretty guy. Before I knew it, I couldn't find a trace of her."
"That just sucks!” said Rhett angrily coming upon the scene and not noticing Craig's grimace at his interruption of this moment. "Sometimes I just don’t know why you two are friends because she's always fuckin' with you somehow."
     "It's really beginning to dawn on me too," said Mariah with a newfound knowledge she hadn't completely absorbed. "I'm really tired. Can we go back now? Where is your dorm anyway? What was it called again? Egg Hall?"
     "No. It's Ogg Hall,” Rhett gently corrected.
     "Well…,” began Craig jointly offering his assistance and not wanting to bid farewell to Mariah just yet, "…we could go to my dorm for a while. It's really close and my roommate is away for the weekend anyway. We could get a pizza or something."
     "Lead the way," said Mariah as she began walking away and for a split second, Craig could have sworn that he saw Mariah flash him the swiftest of a thankful smile before she slowly flipped her mane of black hair back over her shoulders.       

     As Craig suspected, third floor Botkin House remained in a mellow state with low lighting, the intense scent of pot in the air and the scene was all set to Pink Floyd's "Wish You Were Here" album as constant soundtrack. "This album is on an endless loop here,” began Craig to his guests. "I highly doubt I will ever listen to this album again after this year is over."
     "I'll go ahead and order some pizza,” said Rhett, making himself useful as he retrieved Craig's room keys and began to make his way into the dorm room.  
     "May I use your bathroom?" yawned Mariah.
     "Of course,” said Craig, motioning to the swing door. "Go ahead. I'll keep watch."
     Gliding past Craig towards the bathroom, Mariah peeked at him briefly through her thick, dark hair and slyly asked, "Now you aren't going to listen are you?"
     "Uh…huh?" Craig stuttered.
     "I was kidding,” teased Mariah, letting him off of the hook. "Thank you."
    Was she just flirting with me? Craig questioned himself. While he thought of himself as being highly perceptive, matters involving the opposite sex always confounded him due to not wanting to presume anything concerning a girl's affections (or lack thereof) but mostly, it was due to his own minimal self-confidence, truthfully feeling that no one like Mariah Esposito would be interested in him anyway. He couldn't put his finger on it but Mariah was very different from most girls he knew. Aside from her glorious voice, he found an element of mystery to her due to her prolonged silences. And then, there was the matter of her wardrobe. It intrigued Craig to see a seventeen year old girl wearing something that was not part of the high school fashions of the day, college thrift store attire (that was much more attune to what Stephanie wore), and she wasn't deliberately trying to stand out in a crowd, begging people to notice her either. In fact, Mariah's style almost had a timeless quality from her long beige skirt, to her smart black boots underneath, to her subtle yet noticeable hoop earrings and oh so comfy looking and slightly oversized sweater. And, Craig noticed, Mariah didn't even really walk. She sauntered with a most attractive stride. Whatever it was and despite his attraction, Craig quickly dismissed the idea that Rhett's high school friend pondered him for even a fraction of a second more than a complete stranger on the street.
     Did I just flirt with Rhett's friend? Mariah wondered to herself as she stepped into the boys' bathroom and momentarily gazed at herself in the mirror. While it was not in her nature to flirt with boys, she had to admit that while she had not been in Craig's presence for much more than an hour since the moment of their meeting, there was something almost inexplicable about him and furthermore, she liked what she saw. He was so different from the boys she knew in school, and that included Rhett, whom she considered to be a good friend but was somehow just another "boy" to her. Through his own silence during their dinner at Pop's Club and his almost meditative stance by the lake a few minutes earlier, she sensed a certain maturity that was lacking in the boys she knew. His silence was attractive to her, at least it was enough for her to wonder just what he was thinking about this evening anyway. He wasn't the most handsome fellow she had ever seen but there was something cute about his collegiate sweatshirt, his glasses and baseball cap and how all of the parts didn't quite fit together on him. It was as if he was still trying to figure out what his "look" would be and that was adorable to her. Maybe I could be the one to help him find it, she mused to herself. Or maybe I'm just tired, she concluded, remembering Josie's slight and cruel forgetfulness. Mariah washed her hands and then looked towards the door to see Craig's watchful silhouette on the other side. After a sweet sight to herself, Mariah Esposito dried her hands, exited the bathroom and decided to show some politeness and officially introduce herself to Craig Hughes.

     "God, she must've been wiped out,” said Rhett.
     "It's gotta be more than a little tiring coming all the way from Minneapolis to see your best friend and subsequently being dumped by said friend for some guy!" offered Craig.
     Within ten minutes of arriving into Craig's room, Mariah descended onto Craig's bunk and quickly fell asleep with the sounds of the radio and Rhett's voice ordering pizza fading into her sub-consciousness.
     "Good idea coming to your room, man,” said Rhett. "She wouldn't have been up to trekking all the way back to Ogg as mad and obviously, as tired as she is. I'll keep checking my messages to see if Josie had the good sense enough to call and even find out what happened."
     "You know, I am still trying to figure out who Josie went off with and I can't come up with a thing. I can't think of guys that fit the description of 'tall' and 'pretty'. Those were her words, by the way."
     After a few moments of thought, Rhett stifled a disgusted snort and as if he just swallowed something unpleasant, he choked out, "Please don't let it be Troy Blake."
     "What is up with him? You really don't like this guy."
     "It's just guys like that make it hard for guys like me,” said Rhett with cocktail of bitter sadness dipped in a vat of truth.

Several hours, a whole pizza and many Dr. Peppers later, with still no contact from Josie Fagen and a sleeping Mariah Esposito on Craig's bunk, Rhett and Craig, on a mixed high of fatigue and caffeine, decided to play a musical game. It involved noting more than vast musical knowledge and a Muzak radio station, the kind of anomaly that broadcasts the popular songs of the past and present but in a soothing-by-way-of-a-frontal-lobotomy instrumental style. The rules of the game were simple: the boys would each take turns guessing the identity of each song within thirty seconds and once someone was not able to determine the song's name and artist, they would then go to sleep and start the search for Josie Fagen in the morning. By 4:00 a.m., Craig and Rhett were still at their game, convulsing heartedly with each increasingly ridiculous musical selection from Ratt's glam-metal offering "Round and Round", as arranged for syrupy strings with a mournful bassoon taking the lead vocal melody to Neil Young's "Like A Hurricane", reconfigured as an organ driven bossa-nova with an archaic drum machine as time keeper (Rhett envisioned a blue-haired octogenarian entertaining her pained grandchildren with this selection). Pandemonium hit around 6:30 a.m. when Lionel Richie's ballad, "Hello" hit the airwaves in the original vocal recording, completely unmolested! "Damn!" spluttered Craig through aching sides and laugh provoked tears. "It's like the Muzak people said, 'There ain't nothing more we can do with this!'"
     "How are they gonna do that to Lionel?" asked Rhett also etching closer to the edge of delirium.
     As a surprise to both of them, there was a soft yet intense sounding knock on Craig's door. Craig and Rhett fitfully attempted to silence themselves to no avail as Craig answered the door.
     The bean-pole, seemingly underfed frame of Mason Gripweed (the proprietor of the endlessly audible "Wish You Were Here") peeked into room with a hint of the rising sun's glow shimmering off of his shoulder length hair.
     "Dude, what's goin' on in here?" he asked with an amiable yet lethargic growl.
     "Sorry man," responded Craig. "Have we been keeping you up?"
     "Not really, man. I've been up all night. It's just we've been hearin' you guys falling all over yourselves and we thought that you decided to cross over to 'The Bakery'."
      "Oh no. I'm still not planning to take that trip. Everything's fine. We'll keep it down though."
     "It's cool." Then noticing Mariah stirring on Craig's bunk, Mason added an embarrassed, "Oh, sorry dude."
     "No man. It's not like that. She visiting the school and her friend ditched her at a Kronshage party last night for...who was that again, Rhett?"
     "Troy Blake," answered Rhett with solemnity.
     "Aw, that guy's a tool!" Mason stated.
     "You know him?" asked Craig.
     "I met him back when I did S.O.A.R. He was an oily little shit, trying to get any kind of brownie points he could scrape up for himself and it's like, 'Dude! It's just a campus orientation. You're not getting graded on this!'"
     "You see?" interjected Rhett. "That is exactly what I am talkin' about with that guy!"
     "So, in a little while," started Craig returning to the subject of the sleeping Mariah. "We're gonna wake her up and look for her friend. But, we'll try to keep it down now."
     "Cool. See ya," exited Mason.
     "What's 'The Bakery'?" asked Rhett.
     "Oh, that's just Mason and the guys' code word for drugs—mostly pot," began Craig. Then, affecting his best Spicoli, "Hey bud! Wanna get baked tonight?" Returning to his normal voice, Craig continued. "It amazes me about that guy. I've known him for two years and he has been high everyday and night and somehow, he is on the Dean's List every semester and in Physics for chrissakes. Sometimes, I'm just strugglin' to get a C and he's over the rainbow getting A after A after A. He's cool though."
     "Uh oh," said Rhett.
     "What?"
     "Listen."
     Rhett and Craig began to once again listen to the radio to notice that a tuba was forcing out a painfully hysterical imitation of the synthetic beat to Run-DMC's "You Be Illin'" and once again, their laughter exploded. But this time, Mariah finally began to wake from her slumber.
     "God! Has that been you guys all night?!" asked a grouchy Mariah. "I felt like I was in a goddamn funhouse! Jesus!"
     "Sorry, Mariah," said Rhett, trying to feebly settle down. It was not common to ever hear Mariah utilize any swear words, so he knew she was in an unusually foul mood. But the aforementioned fatigue, caffeine, and a night long game of "Name That Tune: The Muzak Edition" had made respecting her needs more than a little futile. 
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