It has been quite some time since I have posted any material regarding this fifth story from Tales From Memorial Union and while I do have another section ready to go, I wanted to take some time to give all of you an update...especially as I am certain that you have been waiting for it with bated breath (ha ha).
As I have expressed to you in the introduction to this story, "December Boys" has grown into something that I had never anticipated. Regardless of the simplicity of its actual story--two friends undergoing heartbreak spend a frigid February Friday night together as they go to see "Say Anything..." on campus but end up even more heartbroken as the night continues due to the close presence of their still raw romantic memories--writing it has revealed a larger purpose in order for the whole thing to make more emotional sense to me. I guess what I am trying to say is that within memories lie a myriad of other memories and within each moment, anything can cause an emotional trigger to send one spiraling through those memories...even the unwanted ones.
So far, I have "published" most of what has already been written and typed--close to 100 pages and certainly nothing that I had initially intended when I first had the idea for the story in mind. Some of it is highly autobiographical (most notably, quite a lot of the material that centers itself around my alter-ego Craig Hughes), some of it is not or not explicitly so (the material with Rhett Brazelton is much more invented), but all of it, I am trying to make as honest as possible and reminiscent of what my college experience was actually like.
There has already been a fair amount of time jumping within the short stories that house the larger "December Boys," so if there has been a tad of confusion, especially as it is being released piece meal, this is all you really need to know...
WINTER SEQUENCES-(set in the story's PRESENT--circa February 1990)
"PARALLEL LINES: THE BALLAD OF CRAIG AND STEPHANIE-PART ONE" (1987-1988)
"A PILGRIMAGE ON A TIMELESS NIGHT" (Spring--early April 1989)
Very soon, the story will shift for a lengthy spell for us to spend time exclusively with Rhett during the Summer/Autumn of 1989 as he takes a Summer Session Fundamentals In Ethics Philosophy course, the place where he meets and falls for Amethyst Lessing. This section, I have been steadily writing since January 2015 in my Moleskine notebook as well as a new notebook my Co-Teachers gave to me on my birthday this year. I try my best to write during our classroom's daily rest periods (a time in which I am struggling to keep my eyes open as well) and I am happy that I am just plugging away, going and going, just allowing myself to write whatever I wish, knowing that I can edit or change later.
Once I post the next section to this site, I have some typing to do so I will even have something to share with you at all. But, please know that I hope that you are enjoying this story and that you'll stay with me as it continues to arrive here and there. I honestly do not know how long this journey will take for "December Boys" to reach its completion. But I do know how it will end--the ending has been in my head for YEARS!
It just may take me some time to get there.
Stay tuned...
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
Saturday, February 21, 2015
"DECEMBER BOYS" PART EIGHT: A PILGRIMAGE ON A TIMELESS NIGHT (5th section)
DECEMBER BOYS
"A PILGRIMAGE ON A
TIMELESS NIGHT"
(5th section) TIMELESS NIGHT"
The remainder of the morning continued in a mental fog pierced with the
brightness of the sun. The trio staggered to Josie Fagen’s dorm of Witte Hall,
where Mariah collected her possessions and deposited Josie’s room keys with a
floor mate. After then dropping off Mariah’s clothes at Rhett’s dorm in Ogg
Hall, the threesome traveled back to the Lakeshore dorms to crash in Craig’s
room for the rest of the morning, as well as the entirety of the afternoon into
early evening. Upon waking, it was then decided to give Mariah Esposito a
proper introduction to the university—after a strategically placed phone call
to Mariah’s parents, designed to cut them off at the pass and to extol the
virtues of a productive and informative weekend college visit. Craig alerted
his floor mates to Mariah’s situation (mostly to ensure her private visits to
the bathroom) and then happily introduced them all to each other. After a quick
meal of sorts at The Shed, Rhett and Craig presented Mariah to a typically
festive Spring night at Memorial Union. While Craig eventually had to depart in
order to collect some records and broadcast his radio show, Rhett and Mariah
ended up at the more subdued Union South for comical bowling and continued
exposure to the sights and sounds of campus life. The night ended quietly with
more pizza and more soda in Rhett’s room while listening to “Road To Nowhere.”
Rhett silently drifted off to sleep on his bed leaving Mariah in the solitude
of the moment. As she sat in one of the more comfortable chairs, allowing the
chilly night time Spring breeze to caress her face, Mariah breathed deeply,
letting her heart beat slow and unwound the weekend’s events in her mind like
film unspooling from projector. She pondered the success to failure ratio of
her visit thus far and quickly deduced that despite the troubling beginnings
and unplanned morning odyssey, it was a voyage well worth taking and one she
was already feeling disappointment at having to leave behind the next morning.
Even the callousness of Josie Fagen already seemed to be eons away and failed
to derail the weekend’s purpose. On the contrary, Josie’s actions quite
possibly enhanced her positive feelings for the experience and for a split
second, Mariah wondered if she should even thank Josie…but, even as a surprise
to herself, she was not in a forgiving mood and would refuse to be so
concerning her now former friend. Thinking back to the seemingly eternal hours
she spent sitting alone in a foreign dormitory’s festivities, fending off the
glances of drunken suitors, she began to feel a sense of pride at her own strength
in the situation, which was presented with an untouchable standoffishness that
no one was truly brave enough to breach. She never knew she had it in her and
she discovered a certain and previously unforeseen power. She had remained
brave. She felt secure in her decisions of whom to place trust. In
conversations held with Rhett and Craig, she surprised herself with her own
assertiveness. At first, she felt is purely stemmed from her anger towards
Josie but after a moment, she reasoned that if her assertions popped from her
unexpectedly, those same feelings may have emerged at some point whether fueled
by Josie or not. Maybe strength and assertiveness were qualities she had
already possessed but never had the opportunity to try. There was no way to ever
really know with unquestioned certainty but she didn’t want to diminish this
discovery made at this moment at this institution. There was something so
right with her current train of thought and while she didn’t want to
elevate anything past the point of rationality, it was too important to ignore
or discount. The rising elation she felt throughout her body spoke a truth to
her that words couldn’t handle on their own. Mariah felt an ease with her
surroundings, an ease she never felt in high school and the potential of
feeling this way for hopefully extended periods and perhaps even stronger and
more assured was definitely tempting. It felt as if she had shed a skin. That
whatever had kept her quieter, as a follower, as one to be dragged along by the
pursuits of those more adventurous, had now become something to be
discarded.
She had seen the potential of a future
self and she didn’t want anything to cease that evolution. If it were possible,
her college adventures in Madison
would begin immediately.
Mariah rose and strode across the room in a
way as to not evaporate her building epiphany and began to investigate the
contents of Rhett’s educational pursuits. She paged through his copious and
visually frenetic notes. She thumbed through his textbooks on Philosophy and
novels to study for Comp Lit. She inspected the resoundingly unfamiliar names
of Derrida, Foucault, and Jung and chuckled quietly to herself as she envisioned
the names as an organization of an ancient group of attorneys. She began to envision
herself striding up and down Bascom Hill or walking down University Avenue , in a sea of students
heading to one class or another. Picturing herself in these new surroundings
made Mariah happily realize the thoughts felt less like a wish for a hoped future
but more as an invitation that dangled in front of her awaiting fingers that
she was anxious to accept. It was at this very moment that Mariah Esposito
realized that she had fallen in love with the campus and she continued to
envision herself in hoped for situations. She wanted to experience all of the
lecture halls, crammed from top to bottom with students breathlessly taking
notes from Professors of all kinds. She wanted to be drenched with the falling
leaves that seemed to only exist on a college campus. Seeing as she was more of
an introverted sort, the thought of carousing through the many libraries sent
an excited tingle up her spine. She wanted more nights at Memorial Union. She
wanted to meet new people from…everywhere! She even wanted the horrifically
bad dorm food. Every element added to the whole and she wanted it all. The
atmosphere of this campus was inexplicably comforting and she just wanted more
and more of it and right now.
Surprising herself again, she realized that she wanted to learn more
about Craig Hughes. While he was alternately shy or awkward with his sense of
humor, which she did feel was over compensating for any sense of shyness, he
had been a truly gracious host and a person she felt she would love to have on
her side in this environment. As she listened to his radio program, she heard a
different side to Craig. He sounded more confident, more self-assured and
perhaps it was because he was in his natural element of music, a quality she
found admirable during their visit to Memorial Union. The music he played on
his program mostly consisted of pop songs of varying styles, intensity and
moods but all of it contained a slightly left-of-center quality that felt
obscure to her ears. Much like everything else she had experienced this
weekend, the music served as another invitation to a place beyond what she
already knew and again, she wanted more. As his radio program continued to
provide a soundtrack to her new awakenings, she felt a synchronicity that she
wanted to acknowledge personally. Impulsively, she reached for the telephone, began
to dial the often repeated request line number, and after the too-late
beginnings of the ringing tone on the other end, her heart began racing.
“WLHA?” Craig answered.
“Hello,” she began tentatively. “Um…may I speak with Craig Hughes?”
That voice again. That unmistakable, siren-like voice.
“Mariah?”
“Yes! How did you know it was me?” she asked quizzically.
Not wanting to give himself away, Craig tried to act quickly. “Just a
lucky guess…I guess,” he said, feigning a certain slyness that he was uncertain
was terribly successful.
“I see.”
Immediately seizing upon a dark thought, Craig worriedly asked, “Are you
OK?”
“Yes, I’m fine. What’s wrong? You sound concerned?”
“Where are you?”
“I’m at Rhett’s. He’s sleeping and I’m just…” Mariah breathed a deep,
happy sigh. “I‘m just taking it all in.”
“Oh,” said Craig, sounding relieved. “I had this vision that you had
been abandoned once again at some party.”
Mariah laughed heartedly at the notion of cruel fate occurring twice in
a weekend as Craig luxuriated within the sound of her melodic amusement. “If I
am ever subjected to anything like that again, just shoot me because it
will definitely be of my own lack of judgment!”
“Glad to hear that all is well.”
“It certainly is.”
Pause.
“So…” Craig began cautiously. “Why are you calling?”
“Would you prefer that I hadn’t?” asked Mariah with a flirtatiousness
that even took her by shock. It was too late to return that tone back into her
body.
“No. That’s not what I meant at all,” he stammered. “I’m just
surprised…Happily surprised.”
“I guess I’m surprised too.”
“How so?”
“I just didn’t think I’d get through. I’ve never really known anyone to
get through to a radio station. Not that I’ve ever tried it myself…Until now,
that is.”
“No worries there,” Craig chuckled. “I hardly ever get calls or requests.”
“Really? I like your show. It has a good…vibe…I don’t know if
that’s the word I’m looking for. But, I’m having a good time listening to it.”
“Why thank you!” gushed a positively flattered Craig. “I mean—it’s late
Saturday night. I would imagine that there aren’t too many people around in
their dorms listening to the radio right now. And then, there’s the issue of
our highly deficient wattage to deal with. I’m amazed that you can even hear me
now.”
“It’s as clear as a bell.”
“Hmmm. That means the wind is blowing in the right direction.”
Mariah laughed and Craig was pleased she found his comment humorous.
“So, why do you do this if you don’t get requests, calls and wonder if
anyone is listening in the first place?”
“God!” he beamed. “Why wouldn’t I do this?”
“Childhood fantasy fulfilled?” asked Mariah, completely picking up on
the source of Craig’s joy.
“I couldn’t have said it better myself. You have a great way with words,
you know.”
“Why thank you, sir.”
Another brief pause.
“What is this music you’re playing now?” Mariah inquired.
“Mott The Hoople.”
“Who?”
“Mott The Hoople,” Craig began to explain, and hoping to ring the
correct bells of musical memories. “They’re a 70’s band. David Bowie wrote
their song ‘All The Young Dudes’.”
“I don’t know what that is.”
“Really?” asked an honestly stunned Craig, who still found it difficult
to comprehend people who hadn’t previously heard songs which he felt were
universally familiar. “Maybe you would know it if I played it. I’d have to look
for it though and I really hope we have it. I mean-any self respecting radio
station would have that song but we are notorious for not having even the most
seminal works,” he chuckled.
“You know, even if you did play it, I really don’t think I would know it
at all. “ Then, ensuring no signs of
disappointment were inferred, she added sweetly, “But don’t let me stop you.
I’d love to hear it”
“A rare request…sort of,” he laughed. “I will look for it.”
“A rare request…sort of,” he laughed. “I will look for it.”
“Great,” she said and then after a brief pause she added, ”Thank you Mr.
DJ!” with another unexpected bout of honey sounding flirtatiousness (before she
knew it, she had even dropped her voice a register) that indeed sent the
intended chemically emotional response to Craig, who then nearly bumped into
the record player’s stylus on the upcoming track he had selected for broadcast.
And after that momentary firework blast…silence. A somewhat lengthy one
at that. Within that silence, Craig and
Mariah both mentally returned to that fleeting instance where their brains and
hearts were happily and confoundingly scrambled by the Botkin House bathroom
the night before. Again, Craig was unsure as to what he had heard, the tone in
which he heard it as well as the intent and possibility that she would ever be
of interest to him. If he did hear what he felt he heard, perhaps it wasn’t
even directed to him. Perhaps she was feeling frisky for some unknown
reason and just let it out. It would’ve happened anytime, anywhere. Mariah was
equally unsure as to where this unusual behavior emerged from and exactly what
it was about this person that allowed her to behave this way. Perhaps he saw
right through her as some silly high school girl feebly trying to create a
worldly romantic façade she could not have possibly have earned in any way at
this stage of her life. What they were both absolutely, positively and
completely certain of was that neither one of them wanted to hang up the
telephone.
Finally, breaking the silence, Craig spoke. “Would you mind holding on
for just a minute?”
“You know…I could just get going.”
“Oh no,” he said, a little too hurriedly. “I just have to grab a few more records to get the next set started. This song’s about over and besides, I have a request to fill.”
“Oh no,” he said, a little too hurriedly. “I just have to grab a few more records to get the next set started. This song’s about over and besides, I have a request to fill.”
Mariah smiled and she hoped that Craig could hear it.
Once the voice of Robyn Hitchcock announced the station’s call letters,
(an audio snippet designed to also signal a musical tonal change in song
selections), Mariah’s ears were greeted with the opening somnambulistic chords
and narcotic beat of U2’s “Love Comes Tumbling.” Mariah felt like picking
Craig’s brain about life on the UW campus, an interview Craig was only too
happy to oblige.
“I realize this might be a cliché, but…what’s your major?” she inquired
with a knowing giggle.
“I am actually undeclared right now.”
“Is that bad? Don’t you have to have one?
“No. Not right away. It’s not like the ‘University Major Police’ will seek you out or anything. My parents, on the other hand…that’s a whole another ball of pressure. If they had their way, I would have picked my major during Sophomore year of high school!”
“No. Not right away. It’s not like the ‘University Major Police’ will seek you out or anything. My parents, on the other hand…that’s a whole another ball of pressure. If they had their way, I would have picked my major during Sophomore year of high school!”
“Maybe your parents and my parents should get together.”
“Really? Are you under the microscope too?”
“Very much so. Don’t get me wrong. I love my parents. I cannot imagine a
world without the two of them in it. It’s like they have always been here, you
know? I do realize they only want the best for me so I can’t complain terribly
much about it but yes…it would be nice if they eased up a little from time to
time. It’s like they feel that I’m not hearing what they’re saying or that I am
actively choosing to not listen or worse yet, ignore them. I am honestly
hanging onto their every word but when they say the same things for an hour,
it’s just gets to be too much sometimes.”
Craig exuded an empathetic laugh. “I completely understand what you
mean! My parents are like an endurance tag team. One of them will lay into me
for one thing or another for seemingly an eon and then, when it seems like it’s
going to slow down, Mom will pass the baton to Dad or he will pass the baton to
her and then they go at it with me. I’m amazed that they never seem to run out
of words, breath or energy. I don’t think they really take into account that
the act of listening takes up almost even more energy.”
“Do they try to quiz you on what they’ve said?”
“Mercilessly,” he snickered dryly. “And…I think they actually enjoy that
part so I have to stay on my toes.”
“I will amend my earlier statement. Our parents should definitely meet.
They could hold a summit, passionately discuss our respective futures and share
any deep worries they have for their obviously and completely unfocused
children,” she laughed.
Laughing a little harder, Craig added, “I would really hate to be the
subject of that kind of a summit!”
“So back to your status as undeclared,” said Mariah. “Do you have any
ideas of what you might want to do?”
“Yes. I know it’s not what my parents would want for me but then again,
I think they would be happy if I picked something. But, I am thinking of
Communication Arts. They have three different course tracks you can take and
the Radio-TV-Film track is the one that speaks to me. I originally wanted to be
a Journalism major but after looking at the courses which many of them looked
to be like classes in law, it lost its luster for me.”
“So, you’re a writer?”
“I don’t know…I just know that I like to write. Its one of the only
things I feel comfortable with. I think I told people I wanted to be Journalism
major back in high school just so people would stop asking me what I wanted to
major in. I always felt like I had to say something.”
“I have to admit, that line of questioning is grating to say the least.
I mean—just let me graduate from high school first. I do have a few weeks left
yet, as well as a graduation ceremony to attend to. Do I have to know my entire
college destiny now?”
“Please don’t hang up when I ask you this but…do you have any ideas of
what you want to major in?”
“I won’t hang up. Don’t worry. Ummm…you know, I have always had this
thing for History.”
“Really?”
“Don’t you?”
“Well…it’s
not like I have anything against history. No vendettas, arguments or accusations
against it. Not like Science.”
“Mortal enemies?” Mariah asked.
“To the bitter end, definitely,” Craig laughed somewhat painfully as the
sound of his disapproving parents flashed through his brain. “But History…It’s
hard for me, I guess. If it is not connected to a topic I’m already interested
in, the dates and places get jumbled in my head. I mean—I could give you the
history of a band or the entire life track of a director and how that path may
relate to something else but if you tossed say…the life path of King Agamemnon
at me, I’d drown. What is it about History that appeals to you?”
“Weeeelllll,” Mariah drawled to Craig’s content, “I know when I was
younger, it was really a fascination with how much simpler life seemed to be. I
guess it was something more romantic than real but still…I think what really
grabbed me was this Social Studies teacher I had last year. She was a lawyer.
She only taught from time to time and she was really one of those teachers
you’d never want to cross. I mean—the first day of class, she like gets up in
front of everyone and lays down her own personal and exhaustive Magna Carta, to
which she ends with ‘And if any of you think I’m a BITCH, then that’s
right!! I’m a BITCH!!’” she concluded after demonstrating bloodthirsty
imitation.
“So, you liked History because you were under duress?”
“No,” she laughed. “What got to me was this idea that just because it is
in a book doesn’t always mean that’s the way it happened. She used to always
say that while there’s truth in facts, facts aren’t necessarily the truth and
how we must always, always, always question everything including her! I thought
that was brave. I mean-she was the first teacher I ever had that that really
seemed to want for us to think, you know? She challenged us to not take
everything at face value and that History is about everything that’s left out
as much as everything that’s left in. And why were things left out and all of
the stories that can come from why things were left in and out and so on and I
got to thinking that History is the account of every single person that lived
it and that’s when I fell in love with it. I really like thinking about what
came before me, what came before my parents and my friends and just people I
don’t know at all. I mean—who walked this campus long before you and Rhett got
here? Who built this place? Why were things designed to look they way they do?
It’s all connected, I guess and I like looking at the connections. Ooooh! I
just love architecture and art history too and I was just looking through
Rhett’s books and notes and I just can’t wait to find out more and…I’m rambling
aren’t I? Just going off, huh?”
“No, not at all!” said Craig filled with a growing affection for this
girl who had taken the time to call him up. “I really get a clearer picture of
it. I guess I never thought of History that way. In fact, it sounds a lot like
how Rhett thinks of things too.”
“Yeah. He gets his head in the clouds quite a bit. Before I knew him, I
used to think he was perpetually stoned but I realized he’s just naturally in
another place.”
“I can see that. You know, he was very right about you too.”
“How so?”
“He told me that when you don’t tend to say terribly much but when you
get going, you get going.”
“Ah, so he thinks I can’t just shut up, huh?” she mused while
compulsively twirling the telephone cord.
“I really don’t think that’s what he meant. I’m glad to hear you and
hear what you think about things. And besides, I’m a captive audience…happily
so and what else am I gonna do anyway?”
“Um…your radio show, perhaps?”
“That’s easy. I’ve got songs and songs lined up.”
And so he did. They conversed through World Party’s “All Come True,” chatted
through Oingo Boingo’s “Long Breakdown,” parlayed through The DBs “I Lie,” and
prattled through Fleetwood Mac’s “Sands Of Time.” For both Mariah and Craig,
time became elastic as before either of them even realized it, 50 minutes had
passed without a trace of dead air, either on or off the air, had occurred.
Soon, it was almost time for Craig to end his broadcast and whatever gossamer
thread held the two together in stimulating conversation, he was anxious not to
break it and he hoped she felt the same. So, he tried to push it a little bit
longer.
“So, are you definitely coming here?”
“After this weekend, there is absolutely no question in my mind in the
least,” said Mariah with a clear-eyed certainty that matched her words.
“Then my work here is done!” said Craig with a deep-voiced mock bravado.
“You should work for the university then,” she said.
“Who knows? Maybe I will. But until that day arrives, I was also
wondering if you have any idea of where you might live?”
“Who knows what the collective deities of student housing will do with
me but I can tell you that I listed Chabourne Hall as my top choice. Girls
only, you know, but at least it’s not the…what did you call it…oh yeah…’The
Virgin Vault’.”
“Look…I’m sorry about that. It’s just a name that’s goes all over campus
and…”
“Don’t worry about it,” she consoled. “I was just mad about Josie and everything
was making me angry then. It already feels like a year ago. So, yes, going
back to housing, I wanted a place that was girls only.”
“Ah…girls only,” said Craig sounding more relaxed after being released
from his early morning faux-pas, which did indeed already feel like a year ago.
“I can relate. I picked where I’m living because it was boys only but you know,
there’s girls around so much of the time that I’ve just gotten used to it.”
“Is that so?” she asked flirtatiously.
“Hey! I didn’t say they were coming from my room. I just said
that they were around.”
“OK then. Because, if you were the campus lothario, I would have no idea
of how you ever got any studying done at all. I am fully aware of the
reputation this school has for partying…and so do my parents so that is making
them trepidatious about having me attend.”
“I feel that I must respond to both points. First off, the concept of me
being a campus lothario. I’m flattered and ultimately confounded as to how you
could have ever come up with that descriptive term for me,” he began laughing.
“Why would that be so hard to believe?” she inquired coquettishly.
“Because,“ he began tentatively
and thinking of the current non-existent state of his romantic life, “it’s just
not true.” After a hiccup of a pause he continued. “Anyhow, as for your second
point about this being a party school. I had a high school classmate who was a
year ahead of me tell me when I was finishing high school that maybe I should
re-think coming here because this is such a party school. He told me that he
just couldn’t get anything done and he actually transferred to somewhere else.
But, you know, all I could think of is who put the gun to his head and told him
to go to the party and not study. This school has about 40,000 students and
there’s so many other things to do than party and besides, you’ll be so busy
that you really won’t have time to party that much.”
“So what do you do?”
“Well…it may sound boring to you or others but I love going to movies,
hanging out at the Union , doing this radio
show…man, just sitting in the dorm hallways with my friends and just talking
for hours and hours is great. I wouldn’t trade it for anything.”
“That doesn’t sound boring to me,” she said tenderly. “In fact, I think
that really sounds…perfect.”
Another pause to allow the words to sail through the telephone wires to
Craig’s ears and heart.
“Well…I know you’ll have Rhett around but if you need a study partner…”
“Oh…you’ll be a Junior then. I’m sure you’d be too busy for anything
like that.”
“I’m just putting it out there. And trust me, you’ll be busy too. You’ll
be so busy that you just may even skip a class just to do the work for it. In
fact, there will even be times when your body just says, ‘No.’”
“What do you mean my body will just say ‘No’?”
“Not long ago, I got up for class as always. I took my shower, got
dressed, went to ‘The Virgin Vault’ for my morning orange juice, walked down
Bascom Hill to the Humanities building for an English lecture. I got to the
door, placed my hand on the door handle, opened it, looked inside and somehow,
someway, my body said, ‘No.’ And somehow, by some force that didn’t seem to
come from me, I closed the door and walked down to Library Mall and just sat by
the fountain and watched people.”
“You skipped class?!”
“Yup, I did! Now, what I said about skipping classes to do the homework,
that’s very true. There are just times where I felt that the little time I had
would be better spent doing the work then sitting listening to a lecture. But,
on this day…that morning at least, I just did…nothing. Now, it’s nothing I make
a habit of and it was a great day but I think my body was telling me to unplug
a little. So I did.”
“Wow!” she exhaled incredulously.
“Do me a favor please…just don’t tell my parents because if they knew I
had even skipped one class, they would tag-team me until I was 38!”
“Your secret is safe with me.”
“Mariah…I really, really hate to do this but speaking of
unplugging, I’ve reached then end of my show and I have to get a couple tunes
before we go off the air.”
“Oh…do you need me to hang up?”
“Please don’t. Not just yet. Would you hang
on for another minute though?”
“Sure.”
It was a magical night and Mariah deeply meant what she had said about
the adventures of that very morning feeling like they had transpired a year in
the past. In fact, she has felt as if she had gone further through her
metamorphosis and her emergence into that person she wanted to become was even
more of a reality. Listening to the song on the radio, she began to sway
against the wall, swinging the telephone cord languorously to the beat, feeling
so charmed and lifted by the night, the soundtrack and the conversation. It had
to end, of course but maybe there was some way to carry it with her.
“I’m back,” said Craig returning to the phone.
“What song is this?”
“This is ‘They Never Will Know’ by Marshall Crenshaw.”
“It’s pretty.”
“Yeah, I love it too.”
“Look…did you say that you tape your shows?”
“Yeah.”
“I was wondering. Do you think there would be a way to make a copy for me?”
“Absolutely!! I can do it right after I go off the air.”
“Oh you don’t have to go to that kind of trouble. You could just send it
to me. Rhett knows my address.”
“It’s fine. I’d be so happy to do it.”
“Why…thank you,” she said, genuinely touched by the gesture.
“I actually have to go this time, Mariah. I have to talk on the air
now.”
“Oh! Well…let me let you go then.”
“Yeah,” he said, not knowing what else to say.
“I really hope that we can talk again soon, Craig. Thank you so much
again for last night and this morning. If most people on this campus are
anything like you, then this will be a very rewarding experience for me.”
“I…I don’t know what to say,” said a deeply
affected Craig. “Um…thank you, Mariah. I really hope we can talk again soon
too.”
“Well…bye and good night,” she said sweetly.
“Good night to you too.”
They hung up.
As the final notes faded into the night’s airwaves, Craig breathed a
long, soulful sigh. To what he owed for receiving a wonderful exchange such as
this he did not know and for a moment, he actually questioned if Mariah even
knew to whom she was speaking.
Mariah was also in a state of afterglow only returning to the present by
the sleepy grumblings of Rhett, who was now stirring on his bed.
“Did you say something?” he croaked.
Mariah answered him with the most bashful of smiles. She wasn’t ready to
divulge just yet.
The following morning as Rhett was preparing to escort Mariah back to
the bus destined for Minneapolis ,
Mariah made a discovery that allowed her to contain the previous evening’s
magic to herself a bit longer. It sat just outside of Rhett’s door. Addressed
to her was a cassette containing the entirety of Craig’s radio show, which only
ended hours earlier. Along with completely annotated details of the songs and
artists, there was a brief note.
“Just as requested here is last night’s show. Thank you so very much.
I had a great time! Have a safe trip
back home and I really do hope we cross paths again once you come toMadison .
back home and I really do hope we cross paths again once you come to
Take care,
Craig”
Craig”
There was so much to ponder and wonder as she rode home. She indeed felt
as certain as before. She would be attending college in Madison in just a few short months, which of
course felt eons away due to her intense anticipation.
Mariah Esposito completed high school in early June sailing though her
final exams with a focus that even amazed her already proud parents. She
quickly attained a summer job to assist with payment for her upcoming school
supplies and books and by August, she was more than ready. As she stepped from
her home into her parents’ car for the drive into her future, she celebrated
the time by listening again to her cassette, on which the final song was
directed exclusively to her. It was indeed “All the Young Dudes,” where Craig
introduced with a sweet, “Even the familiar is new somewhere for someone.”
How true, she thought. Mariah listened to the show and the song in
particular over and over. While she would mostly be unsure as to the song
original meaning, she felt that for her, it was a song of the future. One that
she was bursting to meet head on.
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Sunday, February 8, 2015
"DECEMBER BOYS" PART SEVEN: A PILGRIMAGE ON A TIMELESS NIGHT (4th section)
DECEMBER BOYS
"A PILGRIMAGE ON A
TIMELESS NIGHT"
TIMELESS NIGHT"
(4th section)
The
triumvirate emerged onto the top of Bascom Hill, wrapped in the crisp embrace
of a cool Spring Saturday morning as the sunlight splintered through the tress
to gently settle itself upon the morning dew graced grass. The invigorating
breeze became a source of cleansing to Mariah Esposito as the clear air filled
her lungs to give herself measured breaths but it also released the cobwebs of
the night before to make way for her determination to find, confront and
ultimately throttle Josie Fagen. If there happened to be any interference with
the airwaves of her anger, it came from the two boys who flanked her, obviously
coasting on the waves of their own fumes and lunacy. At any other time, and
definitely in the very near future, Mariah would remember this morning with a
gratitude that would sometimes render her completely speechless. That these two
boys, one of whom she didn’t even know, cared for her safety so guilelessly to
watch over her and ensure she was protected and vindicated, reached her heart
in ways to counteract the callousness of Josie’s inconsiderate actions. But for
now, Mariah compulsively stroked and brushed her mane towards and away from her
ears, as if to bat away an annoying gnat but to actually quiet the increasingly
raucous laughter that erupted from Craig and Rhett, seemingly as often as the
plants and flowers budded from the earth all along both sides of the hill.
“Oh my God!” shouted Craig, nearly halfway down the path. “There was
this time last year when Jon and I were coming back from State Street . We were heading up the hill
and then, there was this girl, who was obviously heading out for the night, all
dressed up in hot pants and heels strutting down the hill. When all of a sudden,
the gnomes under the earth pushed up the ground and baby girl did the ‘Stop,
Drop and Roll’!”
“Oh shit!” sputtered Rhett.
“She totally just fell out!”
“And that was funny to you?” Mariah somehow seemed to appear to give
each of the boys a disapprovingly serpentine sideways glance which immediately
made Craig re-think the timing of his story. Perhaps it should’ve been
something to save during a more private moment with Rhett but hoping to save
face, Craig began to backpedal…sort of.
“Well, you see, this girl was probably from
the Virgin Vault.”
“The what?!” asked Mariah sharply.
“Ummm…I mean, Liz Waters Hall.”
“They sometimes call it the Virgin Vault,” interjected Rhett.
“Why?” challenged Mariah with surprising alacrity.
“Uh…I dunno,” muttered Craig sensing and fearing her disappointment with
him. “It’s just a stupid name.” If Craig were able to force his baseball cap
over the fullness of his skull, he would’ve done just so at this moment.
Unfortunately, Mariah wasn’t quite finished but fortunately, this was the most
he had had the opportunity to hear her low, slow, honeyed voice.
“OK, so I am to understand that this girl, from the dorm, nicknamed
probably by some guy who was thankfully turned away by what I would think would
be every girl who lived there, was minding her own business to go out on
a Friday night stumbles on this hill and you and your roommate just laughed at
her? Didn’t you help her?”
“Hey Judge Wopner, it’s cool. It’s cool!” quipped Rhett.
“No, it’s…not quite like that,” Craig addressed Mariah. “I mean—she certainly
didn’t appear to be someone who was in any sort of dire need.” Craig imagined a
cartoon aeroplane in a determined slow descent with each word he spoke. “I
mean, she tripped and fell and rolled and popped back up and walked off to State Street without
one look back.”
“And exactly why was this funny to
you?”
“Mariah, lay off! Haven’t you ever laughed at someone who slipped on the
ice or anything?” asked Rhett. “What’s the big deal?”
Again, Mariah gave each of the boys her disapproving serpentine sideways
glance and with utter disappointment, she gravely announced through exhalation,
“Boys will be boys, I guess.” With that, the topic was closed and the threesome
continued down the hill in complete silence.
By the time the three set their collective feet upon the soil of Library
Mall, it was apparently clear that aside from the stray early morning joggers
and the ritual set-up of the famous fruit stand between Memorial Library and
University Book Store, the student body of the University of Wisconsin-Madison ,
was asleep. This observation was echoed by the sights of the nearly stopped
tower clock and the dormant fountain, the Mall’s centerpiece and grand communal
area for students, tourists and small children. The activity upon State Street was
the inverse of the night before. The only sounds were of their soft footsteps
upon the pavement and the morning breeze through their ears, which carried the
faint stench of spilled beer congealed with piss as they passed by alley ways
decorated with crumpled TYME receipts and vomit stains. As they silently
approached the Capitol, they could begin to detect sounds that were not of
their making and once the Capitol was in full view, they were exposed to a
sight heretofore unseen to each of them.
“God! It looks like the whole city of Madison is here,” uttered Rhett. “What is
this?”
“I wonder if this is the Farmer’s Market,” said Craig. “I’ve heard
people talk about it but I’ve never seen it. Look at all of these people! Let’s
check it out!”
After crossing the street to join the stream of their Madisonian
bretheren, a new threshold had also been crossed and there was no turning back.
Sometimes laugher is best when it is completely exposed and fully relinquished
from its holder and shared with the world. A laughter beyond hearty or even a bellowed
guffaw. A laughter that is uncontainable, uncontrollable and reduces the person
to a puddle of wheezes, clutched sides and a face full of tears. Craig and
Rhett’s recent silence in reverence to Mariah’s rage had been lost the moment
they spotted a large sign by one of the food carts advertising their cheese
curds—“OUR CHEESE CURDS ARE SO FRESH THEY SQUEAK!!”
That was it.
The simple thought of something edible squeaking to the touch to
determine its ultimate freshness and quality to the consumer was a line that
crossed the boys further into their sleep deprived mind state. After that
moment, and much to Mariah’s discontent, everything became funny.
Designs upon balloons, local politicians hawking their latest cause,
jewelry and clothing made from hemp all provided a feast for their folly.
Passing along the juggling antics by the local children’s performer known only
as the Truly Remarkable Loon, Rhett dryly, ironically and predictably uttered
to Craig, “Damn! That loon is just…truly…remarkable.”
By the time they happened along a group of Peruvian musicians (all
performing a collection of guitars and pan flutes and backed by a rhythm track
infectiously flowing through a boom box), Craig, through choked strains of
laughter proclaimed to an equally dilapidated Rhett, “You know John Tesh
wants his house band back by 4:00.”
If the circumstances of the situation were any different, Mariah
would’ve easily allowed herself to join in the communal spirit of her now
nearly useless protectors. Once the passage of time had created a fair share of
distance between herself and this moment, Mariah Esposito would exhale breaths
of thankfulness concerning Rhett’s friendship and especially, the
thoughtfulness and generosity of Craig Hughes, still essentially a complete
stranger. But for now, each footstep through the sea of culinary patrons was
consumed with venom directed towards Josie Fagen. As if on the predetermined theatrical cues of
actor placement and lighting, the Saturday morning crowd of happy families,
artists, and peddlers all seemed to part, like a curtain, to reveal the sight
of Josie Fagen, complete with croissant and steaming morning coffee, staring
upwards at the figure of Troy Blake.
Standing at slightly over six feet tall, the first sight of Troy Blake
was an admittedly impressive one. He stood as if knowingly and proudly on
display for celebratory public viewing with his clear, dark eyes, smooth skin
without a hint of stubble, high cheek bones and perfectly slicked and coiffed
black hair, with strategically placed strands hanging into his eyes like Bryan
Ferry readying himself to sing “Avalon”
--just for you! His expensive clothing also purposefully meant for
public viewing, yet rumpled and wrinkled to belie their cost, hung as lovingly
on his frame as clothing appeared to on Craig’s idol John Cusack. Even the
loafers looked as if they were made to rest specifically on those feet and only
those feet. To only perceive of Troy Blake as some glamour boy was corrected by
his obvious care of his thin yet firm athletic physique courtesy of exercise
regiments five days a week at a Lakeshore gymnasium and vigorous touch football
with friends. For a split second, the dither and din of the Farmer’s Market
appeared to phase into a momentary hush to allow all the proper silence to
witness a sight as attractive at this. Even the unrestrained laughter from
Craig and Rhett (despite himself), and Mariah’s swelling fury, held a pause…but
not for long.
“JOSIE!!” shouted Mariah, shocking everyone out of their reverie.
“Oh, hey Mariah,” began Josie as if the entire events of the night
before had never happened. “Surprised seeing you here at the market. Wanna get
a croissant? I’m not even remotely finished with this one and I know that I
just have to get another. They are just so perfectly flaky and buttery.”
And then for a final delectable effect, Josie uttered a satisfied, “Mmmmm! So
good!”
“Where were you last night? What happened last night?” asked Mariah with
steady unceremonious brusqueness to match her approaching footsteps and also
showing that she was not at all deflected by Josie’s invitation.
“Um…this is Troy !”
Josie smiled as if the introduction explained all Mariah needed to know.
“Hi Mariah!” greeted a positively beaming Troy as he extended his hand. To Mariah’s
surprise, he had a disarming voice that was a little higher in pitch that she had
imagined he would sound and definitely warmer sounding than the “unctuousness”
of Rhett’s description.
Not wanting to be rude, as was her
upbringing, she shook Troy ’s
hand briefly and returned her gaze to Josie. “How could you leave me like that?”
“Leave you?! You seemed to be just fine and truth be told…I
didn’t want to cramp your effortless and obvious show stopping style as there
were at least several guys just eyeing you.”
“I didn’t come here to meet guys. I came here to see you! Where did you
even expect me to sleep last night? You didn’t even exactly leave me your room
keys.”
“Oh…,” started Josie with a delighted purr and a wink in her voice,
“…well…I thought you’d find your way.”
“Fuck you!” screamed Mariah as angry tears popped from her eyes
and she took a few more determined steps towards Josie.
“Whoa! Take it easy, sweets,” started Josie with a detached calmness and
was that even a hint of irritation? “It’s a safe campus. Nothing would’ve
happened to you.”
“How would you know? Did you know all of
those guys there?” shouted Mariah taking another step. “How would you fucking
know?!” Another step. “Did you talk
to them?” Two more steps. “Are they all your friends?” One more step. “Did you
tell them that despite their alcoholic rave they were specifically instructed
to not rape me last night?!” (By this point, Troy Blake had slyly taken
about three strategic steps away from Josie. “You left me!” shoved
Mariah into Josie’s shoulder. “Why did you do that?!”
“Mariah,” began Josie in a quietly
frustrated tone, like a parent not wanting to show anger to their child but
definitely wants to convey that the subject at hand is a closed one. “This is
college. Not high school and if you’re gonna make it here, or anywhere else for
that matter, you’re just gonna have to get over it and grow up a little.”
Mariah Esposito’s proverbial last straw had been broken as she quickly
and violently upturned Josie’s coffee all over her face and then proceeded to
give her one powerful right cross against Josie’s hot, wet check. Mariah then rapidly
turned on her heel and headed back towards Rhett and Craig, who were now
holding each other upright with laughter at Josie’s momentary comeuppance and Troy ’s weak support as he
comforted Josie while strategically not getting his clothes stained. The boys
eventually pulled themselves together enough to follow Mariah’s mane back to State Street only
to see Mariah whip-crack her body once again back in Josie Fagen’s direction.
“What?! Do you want the other side now?” said Josie angrily as she still
dried herself off.
“Look, I’m sorry about all of this,” Troy inserted. “I didn’t know anything about
any of this. Is there anything I can…”
“Shut up!” hurled Mariah with a voice that surprised herself and
even felt sorry for immediately after she spoke. “Give me your keys!” she
ordered Josie.
“What?”
“Give me your keys!!”
Josie slowly fished inside of her pockets for hey dorm keys and once
slightly in view, Mariah snatched them, headed back towards State Street with Rhett and Craig in tow
and leaving a chapter of her life behind with a throbbing left cheek and soaked
in hazelnut scented coffee.
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Tuesday, January 27, 2015
"DECEMBER BOYS" PART SIX: A PILGRIMAGE ON A TIMELESS NIGHT (3rd section)
DECEMBER BOYS
"A PILGRIMAGE ON A TIMELESS NIGHT"
(3rd section)
Rhett
and Craig returned to the vibrating Friday night decadence of Ogg Hall for a
brief lavatory pit-stop to find Rhett's aggressively blinking answering machine
light awaiting them. Craig descended to Rhett's roommate's bed while Rhett
pressed the button to hear the synthetic voice coo, "You have ONE new message." Then, the boys
heard the luxurious voice of Mariah Esposito, yet it was cloaked in a mixture
of fear and irritation as it fought its' way through the wall of voices and drunken
chants of "Red Red Wine.”
"Rhett, I really hope you hear this
message soon. Ummm…Josie…uh…Josie left me. I think she's with some guy and I
don't know where she is. Frankly, I really don't know where I am…"
"YOU'RE IN KRONSHAGE!!!!!"
offered a drunken fool.
"You get that? I'm in Kronshage!
Please come find me. I don't know how to get to your dorm."
"BEEP!"
said the answering machine for final emphasis on the situation.
"Kronshage?" began Craig rising
from the bed. "That's Lakeshore. That's my place. Let's go get her!"
And with that, the two boys immediately
left Rhett's dorm room in pursuit of Mariah Esposito.
Despite the late spring evening chill
coming from Lake Mendota through the Kronshage Residence halls windows, Mariah
Esposito silently simmered by the stereo, doing her very best to appear
unfriendly and avoid contact with a roomful of drunken strangers, pondering
just how things went wrong on this night. No, that's not true. Mariah knew exactly how things went wrong on this
night. The same way events tended to sway away from Mariah whenever Josie was
involved. The true question was why she continued to allow herself to remain on
the shallow end of Josie Fagen's constant pursuit of happiness. Like everyone
else who came into contact with Josie Fagen, Mariah was not immune to her
spell. The two girls met in the fourth grade and became fast friends much to
the chagrin of Mariah's fiercely hard-working and cautious parents, Frank and
Carmen Esposito. Even at this precise moment, Mariah clearly heard their voices
chanting a lifetime's worth of mantras in her brain yet the one which poked
through the morass of homilies was, "Always know where you are and always
know who you are with!" I guess I screwed
that one up on both counts, she cursed to herself.
It
was so much fun in the beginning. Where Mariah's family, while loving, was more
serious and at times, exuded an immense sense of over-protectiveness, partially
due to the fact that Mariah was an only child, the trajectory of life she was placed
onto was dry at best, strikingly rigid at worst and unshakable all of the time.
The arrival of Josie Fagen gave Mariah a window into life's possibilities and
options. Mariah's entrance into Josie's world was comparable to Dorothy
blending into a world of color after living in black and white in "The
Wizard Of Oz.” When they first met, Josie Fagen emanated an essence of
sophistication coupled with an intense yet world weary curiosity that bordered
on the exotic to Mariah Esposito's nine year old eyes and she had felt so
fortunate that her interest had been reciprocated. Mariah was also attracted to
the subtle differences in their lives, for instance, Josie had two siblings
where she herself had none, Mariah lived in a house while Josie lived in a high rise apartment, and then there were
Josie's parents, who were no-less hard working but so much more relaxed than her own parents. During one visit to Josie's home, Mariah nearly keeled over to
hear a swear word loudly and somewhat proudly emerge from the mouth of Daniel
Fagen, Josie's younger brother. He arrived home after racing home from his
moments-ago cancelled baseball practice drenched and muddy. He shook himself
off and wiped his feet with an exaggerated sense of frustration and for the
exclamation point of this moment, Daniel Fagen shouted, "Shit!” in the way
pre-pubescent kids utilize profanities when they are more than obviously trying
them out for size.
"Daniel, is there something wrong?”
asked his father Walter as he calmly sliced cucumbers for the Fagen family's
evening salad.
"Dad! I just got so damn soaked
getting home from practice!” bellowed Daniel petulantly drying himself.
"I'm just a damn drowned rat!” he concluded for further emphasis.
"Just go into the bathroom and clean
up. There's no need for dramatics,” instructed his father with a bemused smirk.
Daniel stomped his way to the family bathroom and that was that.
Meanwhile, Mariah and Josie had been
quietly going through a round of backgammon upon Daniel's profane entrance. After
witnessing the proceedings, Mariah's mouth hung open as if she had been slapped
moments ago and was straining for words to form in her brain to travel to her
mouth which was waiting to utter them.
"Josie?" Mariah finally
whispered.
"What?" Josie whispered back.
"Daniel said 'Shit!'" said
Mariah still shocked.
"And?” asked Josie unmoved.
"No, he said "Shit!"
"And?" asked Josie with a hint of
irritation of Mariah simply not getting to the point of this discussion.
"My parents would kill me if I ever
said anything like that at home," Mariah finally explained.
"Oh,” uttered Josie, finally understanding
Mariah's tone of disbelief. "My parents let us swear only if we understand
what the words mean and if we don't abuse the privilege,” she explained humorlessly
and with a flick and flair of her wrists as she rolled the dice and swiftly
made her final moves in their game, Josie announced, "I win."
When Mariah cautiously recounted this tale
to her father, Frank Esposito began to laugh violently while looking at his
impressionable daughter as a person who had obviously lost whatever God given
sense was given to her. "A privilege?!" he roared. "My dear,
people that partake in a liberal use of profanity are people who have nothing
of value to say and they also have nothing of value for you to listen to,"
he began. "I truly and deeply question the judgment of Josie's parents but
that is their house and it is not my place to judge them. But in this house, you will not ever use such language!" said Frank with rising
force in his voice. And then for the coup de grace, "Your Mother and I did
not waste our time raising a daughter to utilize unintelligible speech at home
or in public. The way you speak to people informs them of what kind of a person
you are. Remember that." And another Esposito family homily had been
spoken and duly noted by Mariah.
Mariah Esposito was not a child who was in
desperate need to rebel against her parents. On the contrary, her relationship
with her parents was a foundation of love and support in her life and one she
would willingly and happily continue to draw from even deeply into her
adulthood. Yet, at this point in her pre-pubescent and eventual adolescent
life, she did want to stretch the confines to a degree and Josie was the
perfect outlet to experiment and test the boundaries with, in initially (and
relatively) safe formats, like faking illnesses to hang out in the school's
nurse's office or returning late to homeroom from gym class due to playing in
the snow.
As their exploits increased in daring (or
stupidity, depending upon whom you asked), there was one adventure in which
Josie truly crossed the line. While riding the elevator to Josie's apartment,
Josie had stopped the elevator between floors and somehow forced the doors open
in order to see what would be on the other side. While all they saw was the
gleaming silver of the elevator chamber, Josie did not have the foresight to
figure out how to get the elevator doors closed, let alone how to get it started
again. Obviously, the two girls were caught, their parents were notified and
Mariah was of course destined to make a return trip to the Esposito family
pulpit in which she was presented with a lengthy sermon passionately delivered
by her Mother with fire and brimstone raging in her incredulous eyes.
"This Josie Fagen is a narcissistic
infant! I honestly do not know what her parents do with her, if anything at
all. She's selfish, she carries no impulse control and worst of all, she claims
to be your friend when she profoundly cares little to nothing about you. And
before you even begin to protest and tell me about how close you are and what a
great friend she is, think about what just happened to you in that elevator.
What would posses her to stop an elevator between floors?! What would even then
further posses her to open the elevator doors?! What if she also decided to
push you out to see how quickly it would take for you to hit the bottom?! Like
your Father has always expressed to you, you need to always be aware of where
you are and who you are with. You have to look out for yourself, Mariah because
you cannot depend upon someone else to do it for you especially if you get into
trouble. It's simple human nature. People will protect themselves before they
protect you and Josie strikes me as someone who will always follow her own path
at your expense. I trust you will show much better judgment next time and
simply leave. You are smart so be
smart and listen to whatever it is inside of you—preferably my
voice in your brain--that tells you when something is wrong and follow
accordingly!" Herendeth the lesson.
In Mariah's senior year English class this
year, the students had been assigned the classic, Peter Pan. If there was anything about the book that struck Mariah
as notable was its' sadness and the somewhat desperate attitude, recklessness
and ultimate loneliness of Peter. In fact, this book touched her so much that
it was one of very few books she ever re-read. Sitting in Kronshage, being
pummeled by the sound of screaming students forcing its way through the music
and alcoholic haze and waiting for Rhett's rescue, she wished she could just
curl up with that very book at this moment. It would be something to take her
away from Josie's inconsiderateness but as she pondered the story, something
became glaringly clear in her mind: Josie was her own personal Peter Pan. Maybe
Josie wasn't as desperate as Peter and she definitely didn't seem lonely but
she was shockingly inconsiderate. Mariah thought of a passage in which Peter,
Wendy, Michael and John were flying in the night sky towards Never Never Land
and Peter quickly flew onwards, forgetfully leaving his companions behind. As
she thought of this sequence, her Mother's sermon from the elevator incident
echoed in her brain and finally made complete sense to her. Even so, she
decided that she wouldn't tell her parents about this. There was no need to add
fuel to their fire against Josie Fagen. She would just have to handle this one
herself.
"Mariah!” shouted Rhett over the
slinky chicken scratch guitar and rim shots of "Need You Tonight.”
"Are you OK?"
Mariah nodded in the affirmative yet said
nothing as she slowly rose from her seated position, navigated through the room
and out into the clear, cool night. Once outside, she noticed Craig from
earlier that evening, standing by a tree looking out towards the lake. She
surveyed his contemplative nature and decided right then and there to approach
him.
"Hi."
Startled by her luxurious voice, Craig
quickly turned to face Mariah and took a moment to find simple, introductory
words to respond back to her greeting. "Uh…Hi." And then to ensure
that whatever connection was made didn't immediately fade, he asked, "What
happened to you?"
"Well, we came to check out this
party and Josie took it upon herself to ingratiate herself with some really
tall, pretty guy. Before I knew it, I couldn't find a trace of her."
"That
just sucks!” said Rhett angrily coming upon the scene and not noticing Craig's
grimace at his interruption of this moment. "Sometimes I just don’t know
why you two are friends because she's always fuckin' with you somehow."
"It's really beginning to dawn on me
too," said Mariah with a newfound knowledge she hadn't completely
absorbed. "I'm really tired. Can we go back now? Where is your dorm
anyway? What was it called again? Egg Hall?"
"No. It's Ogg Hall,” Rhett gently corrected.
"Well…,” began Craig jointly offering
his assistance and not wanting to bid farewell to Mariah just yet, "…we
could go to my dorm for a while. It's really close and my roommate is away for
the weekend anyway. We could get a pizza or something."
"Lead the way," said Mariah as
she began walking away and for a split second, Craig could have sworn that he
saw Mariah flash him the swiftest of a thankful smile before she slowly flipped
her mane of black hair back over her shoulders.
As Craig suspected, third floor Botkin
House remained in a mellow state with low lighting, the intense scent of pot in
the air and the scene was all set to Pink Floyd's "Wish You Were
Here" album as constant soundtrack. "This album is on an endless loop
here,” began Craig to his guests. "I highly doubt I will ever listen to
this album again after this year is over."
"I'll go ahead and order some pizza,”
said Rhett, making himself useful as he retrieved Craig's room keys and began
to make his way into the dorm room.
"May I use your bathroom?" yawned Mariah.
"Of course,” said Craig, motioning to
the swing door. "Go ahead. I'll keep watch."
Gliding past Craig towards the bathroom,
Mariah peeked at him briefly through her thick, dark hair and slyly asked,
"Now you aren't going to listen are you?"
"Uh…huh?" Craig stuttered.
"I was kidding,” teased Mariah, letting him off of the hook. "Thank you."
"I was kidding,” teased Mariah, letting him off of the hook. "Thank you."
Was
she just flirting with me? Craig questioned himself. While he thought of
himself as being highly perceptive, matters involving the opposite sex always
confounded him due to not wanting to presume anything concerning a girl's
affections (or lack thereof) but mostly, it was due to his own minimal
self-confidence, truthfully feeling that no one like Mariah Esposito would be
interested in him anyway. He couldn't put his finger on it but Mariah was very
different from most girls he knew. Aside from her glorious voice, he found an
element of mystery to her due to her prolonged silences. And then, there was
the matter of her wardrobe. It intrigued Craig to see a seventeen year old girl
wearing something that was not part of the high school fashions of the day,
college thrift store attire (that was much more attune to what Stephanie wore),
and she wasn't deliberately trying to stand out in a crowd, begging people to
notice her either. In fact, Mariah's style almost had a timeless quality from
her long beige skirt, to her smart black boots underneath, to her subtle yet
noticeable hoop earrings and oh so comfy looking and slightly oversized
sweater. And, Craig noticed, Mariah didn't even really walk. She sauntered with
a most attractive stride. Whatever it
was and despite his attraction, Craig quickly dismissed the idea that Rhett's
high school friend pondered him for even a fraction of a second more than a
complete stranger on the street.
Did
I just flirt with Rhett's friend? Mariah wondered to herself as she stepped
into the boys' bathroom and momentarily gazed at herself in the mirror. While
it was not in her nature to flirt with boys, she had to admit that while she
had not been in Craig's presence for much more than an hour since the moment of
their meeting, there was something almost inexplicable about him and
furthermore, she liked what she saw. He was so different from the boys she knew
in school, and that included Rhett, whom she considered to be a good friend but
was somehow just another "boy" to her. Through his own silence during
their dinner at Pop's Club and his almost meditative stance by the lake a few
minutes earlier, she sensed a certain maturity that was lacking in the boys she
knew. His silence was attractive to her, at least it was enough for her to
wonder just what he was thinking about this evening anyway. He wasn't the most
handsome fellow she had ever seen but there was something cute about his
collegiate sweatshirt, his glasses and baseball cap and how all of the parts
didn't quite fit together on him. It was as if he was still trying to figure
out what his "look" would be and that was adorable to her. Maybe I could be the one to help him find it,
she mused to herself. Or maybe I'm just
tired, she concluded, remembering Josie's slight and cruel forgetfulness.
Mariah washed her hands and then looked towards the door to see Craig's
watchful silhouette on the other side. After a sweet sight to herself, Mariah
Esposito dried her hands, exited the bathroom and decided to show some
politeness and officially introduce herself to Craig Hughes.
"God, she must've been wiped out,” said
Rhett.
"It's gotta be more than a little tiring
coming all the way from Minneapolis to see your best friend and subsequently
being dumped by said friend for some guy!" offered Craig.
Within ten minutes of arriving into
Craig's room, Mariah descended onto Craig's bunk and quickly fell asleep with
the sounds of the radio and Rhett's voice ordering pizza fading into her
sub-consciousness.
"Good idea coming to your room, man,”
said Rhett. "She wouldn't have been up to trekking all the way back to Ogg
as mad and obviously, as tired as she is. I'll keep checking my messages to see
if Josie had the good sense enough to call and even find out what
happened."
"You know, I am still trying to
figure out who Josie went off with and I can't come up with a thing. I can't
think of guys that fit the description of 'tall' and 'pretty'. Those were her
words, by the way."
After a few moments of thought, Rhett
stifled a disgusted snort and as if he just swallowed something unpleasant, he
choked out, "Please don't let it be Troy Blake."
"What is up with him? You really
don't like this guy."
"It's just guys like that make it hard for guys like me,” said Rhett with cocktail of bitter sadness dipped in a vat of truth.
"It's just guys like that make it hard for guys like me,” said Rhett with cocktail of bitter sadness dipped in a vat of truth.
Several
hours, a whole pizza and many Dr. Peppers later, with still no contact from
Josie Fagen and a sleeping Mariah Esposito on Craig's bunk, Rhett and Craig, on
a mixed high of fatigue and caffeine, decided to play a musical game. It
involved noting more than vast musical knowledge and a Muzak radio station, the
kind of anomaly that broadcasts the popular songs of the past and present but
in a soothing-by-way-of-a-frontal-lobotomy instrumental style. The rules of the
game were simple: the boys would each take turns guessing the identity of each
song within thirty seconds and once someone was not able to determine the
song's name and artist, they would then go to sleep and start the search for
Josie Fagen in the morning. By 4:00 a.m., Craig and Rhett were still at their
game, convulsing heartedly with each increasingly ridiculous musical selection
from Ratt's glam-metal offering "Round and Round", as arranged for
syrupy strings with a mournful bassoon taking the lead vocal melody to Neil
Young's "Like A Hurricane", reconfigured as an organ driven
bossa-nova with an archaic drum machine as time keeper (Rhett envisioned a
blue-haired octogenarian entertaining her pained grandchildren with this
selection). Pandemonium hit around 6:30 a.m. when Lionel Richie's ballad,
"Hello" hit the airwaves in the original vocal recording, completely
unmolested! "Damn!" spluttered Craig through aching sides and laugh
provoked tears. "It's like the Muzak people said, 'There ain't nothing
more we can do with this!'"
"How are they gonna do that to
Lionel?" asked Rhett also etching closer to the edge of delirium.
As a surprise to both of them, there was a
soft yet intense sounding knock on Craig's door. Craig and Rhett fitfully
attempted to silence themselves to no avail as Craig answered the door.
The bean-pole, seemingly underfed frame of
Mason Gripweed (the proprietor of the endlessly audible "Wish You Were
Here") peeked into room with a hint of the rising sun's glow shimmering
off of his shoulder length hair.
"Dude, what's goin' on in here?"
he asked with an amiable yet lethargic growl.
"Sorry man," responded Craig.
"Have we been keeping you up?"
"Not really, man. I've been up all
night. It's just we've been hearin' you guys falling all over yourselves and we
thought that you decided to cross over to 'The Bakery'."
"Oh no. I'm still not planning to take
that trip. Everything's fine. We'll keep it down though."
"It's cool." Then noticing
Mariah stirring on Craig's bunk, Mason added an embarrassed, "Oh, sorry
dude."
"No man. It's not like that. She
visiting the school and her friend ditched her at a Kronshage party last night
for...who was that again, Rhett?"
"Troy Blake," answered Rhett
with solemnity.
"Aw, that guy's a tool!" Mason
stated.
"You know him?" asked Craig.
"I met him back when I did S.O.A.R.
He was an oily little shit, trying to get any kind of brownie points he could
scrape up for himself and it's like, 'Dude!
It's just a campus orientation. You're not getting graded on this!'"
"You see?" interjected Rhett.
"That is exactly what I am talkin' about with that guy!"
"So, in a little while," started
Craig returning to the subject of the sleeping Mariah. "We're gonna wake
her up and look for her friend. But, we'll try to keep it down now."
"Cool. See ya," exited Mason.
"What's 'The Bakery'?" asked
Rhett.
"Oh, that's just Mason and the guys'
code word for drugs—mostly pot," began Craig. Then, affecting his best Spicoli, "Hey bud! Wanna get baked
tonight?" Returning to his normal voice, Craig continued. "It amazes
me about that guy. I've known him for two years and he has been high everyday
and night and somehow, he is on the Dean's List every semester and in Physics for chrissakes. Sometimes, I'm
just strugglin' to get a C and he's over the rainbow getting A after A after A.
He's cool though."
"Uh oh," said Rhett.
"What?"
"Listen."
Rhett and Craig began to once again listen
to the radio to notice that a tuba was forcing out a painfully hysterical
imitation of the synthetic beat to Run-DMC's "You Be Illin'" and once
again, their laughter exploded. But this time, Mariah finally began to wake
from her slumber.
"God! Has that been you guys all night?!" asked a grouchy
Mariah. "I felt like I was in a goddamn funhouse! Jesus!"
"Sorry, Mariah," said Rhett,
trying to feebly settle down. It was not common to ever hear Mariah utilize any
swear words, so he knew she was in an unusually foul mood. But the
aforementioned fatigue, caffeine, and a night long game of "Name That
Tune: The Muzak Edition" had made respecting her needs more than a little
futile.
Copyright 2015 by Scott Collins All rights reserved. No part of this material may be reproduced, scanned, or distributed in any printed or electronic form without permission. Please do not participate in or encourage piracy of copyrighted materials in violation of the author's rights.
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